But if I could you know I would just hold your hand and you'd understand, i'm the man who loves you.

[soft_eyes]

i got a total of three and a half hours of sleep today. an hour and a half last night, and two during school. [i feel great.] as for the many little things that made yesterday as bad as it was, i shouldn't have let them. its not worth letting little things bring me down. all of them should have come as no surprise, but i like to get my hopes up for some reason. "hope for alot but expect the least"<-i love mary. so in spite of recent events/things i've found out, i'm happy. [there is nothing like a good pair of jeans and a long sleeved shirt.] i have 18 more weeks, including multiple days off & spring break. i have lots of things to look forward to: lots of shows including bright eyes, xiu xiu & coachella and a photo shoot with gillian in the next two weeks. hopefully seeing mary, garrett and sean, yes even sean, soon. finding out where i will be for the next three or four years of my life.

no erik, no evyan. i'm sad & bored.

there are a few people that mean the world to me right now, i just hope that they know who they are. and i hope that the feeling is reciprocated.

i love you guys.