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CAUTION TOREADER : MAY CONTAIN SELF ABSORBED BITCHINESS
What is wrong with me. Is there something thats so bad about me that i just cant see? Everything that could go wrong in a week, has. Gosh my week has been pretty lonely. Everyone else has been together. friends and family. all i wish for is just one perfect day. when nothing goes wrong. with no worries about anything. when ppl dont freak out over spilt milk. When everything turns out perfect. I kno its a lot to ask for, but i havnt had a perfect day in...well. ever. what you see on T.V is nowhere close to what life actually is. it feels as if im going through a phase thats one of those FUCK THE WORLD, EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE SUCKS, kinda things.
It seems as if nobody wants me around. and nobody wants to talk to me. i feel so alone, and isolated. seriously now, what have i done thats so wrong?
I've never purposely hurt someone emotionaly so why do people think its ok to emotionaly hurt me? Thats why i feel the way i do, because ive been hurt so many times.
Whenever someone gets close to me, they decide. "oh its ok to fuck with rachel, she'll get over it"
'she'll get over it'
the fuck she wont. I'm not a god damned toy you can bend in half.
I just want to sit in the corner of my room, and cry. Cry forever.
What is wrong with me. Is there something thats so bad about me that i just cant see? Everything that could go wrong in a week, has. Gosh my week has been pretty lonely. Everyone else has been together. friends and family. all i wish for is just one perfect day. when nothing goes wrong. with no worries about anything. when ppl dont freak out over spilt milk. When everything turns out perfect. I kno its a lot to ask for, but i havnt had a perfect day in...well. ever. what you see on T.V is nowhere close to what life actually is. it feels as if im going through a phase thats one of those FUCK THE WORLD, EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE SUCKS, kinda things.
It seems as if nobody wants me around. and nobody wants to talk to me. i feel so alone, and isolated. seriously now, what have i done thats so wrong?
I've never purposely hurt someone emotionaly so why do people think its ok to emotionaly hurt me? Thats why i feel the way i do, because ive been hurt so many times.
Whenever someone gets close to me, they decide. "oh its ok to fuck with rachel, she'll get over it"
'she'll get over it'
the fuck she wont. I'm not a god damned toy you can bend in half.
I just want to sit in the corner of my room, and cry. Cry forever.