cried for no one

[sofinefine]

the day breaks
your mind aches
you find that
all her words of kindness
linger on when
she no longer needs you

she wakes up
she makes up
she takes her time
and doesn't feel
she has to hurry
she no longer needs you

and in her eyes you see nothing
no sign of love behind the tears
cried for no one
a love that should have lasted years

you want her
you need her
and yet you don't believe her
when she says her loves is dead
you think she needs you

you stay home
she goes out
she says that long ago
she knew someone
but now he's gone
she doesn't need him

the day breaks
your mind aches
there will be times
when all the things she said
will fill your head;
you won't forget her

i'm waiting for sam lynch to come over. but he's being a fool and taking forever on his college essay. which isn't very cute if you ask me. but that's fine.

i got a hundred percent on my chemistry test today. happiest day of my life. or something close to it.

i like liz a lot.

i like sam lynch a lot.

i hate school.

and i miss my sister.

whoooooo!!!!

alex miller is calling me a drugee. i'm not a druggee. druggy? drugie? i don't even know.

i went on a run today. it's too bad i'm so fat.

i had some garlic for dinner and i can taste it on my breath. it reminds me of the time that i was with alex and i ordered a garlic bagel with garlic cream cheese. he hated me the rest of that day.

alex is really mean to me. for the record.

i kind of want to be like... hey. you will be nice to me until you give me my virginity back. you heartless asshole.

but i'm a little too chicken. and nice. or something. i just don't care enough i guess.

anywayyyy... where the fuck are you sam lynch?? grrrrrrrrrrgggggggg.

i'm sleepy. maybe i'll... take a nap. or something cool. i don't know.

love alexis

so glad you found me.