so yeah (bitching about dogs and debt)
not that it matters, but i didn't get 700 for the car. i got 43 (just enough to get me by until i get paid hopefully). my mom offered me 943.... but then i found out that i have only paid off 1360 of my debt, not over 3000. so i said fuck it- keep the money. my mom tried to make me feel bad about being bitchy, but i just couldn't. she kept saying "well you need the money... it doesn't all have to be paid off right now..." ok, if it didn't all have to be paid off NOW, then why was it such a fucking big deal i wanted to keep some of the money in the first place? i had planned on paying back 4000 of my debt with the stratus money and keeping 1000 for myself. yes, i had every intention on using some of that money to buy the dog i've wanted for like... 2 years now? however, as crushing as it was when i found out i couldn't have a dog, i still wanted some of the money for like.... savings. but they made such a fucking deal about me wanting some of the money i just don't care anymore. they have racked up a nice debt for themselves, and plan on paying it back by stealing all the money they can from me. what the fuck ever. i'm so over any of that money, and i'm just basically considering it never existed. (except i now owe less money) my current debt is 6,400 something (thanks to this months addition of car insurance debt). so i'll work on paying that off. yay....
it just pisses me off. my mom has been saying that she doesn't care if i have a dog, and its my dad i have to convince now. or i'll say i want one and she'll say "you know what you need to do" meaning (so i thought) that i needed to sell the stratus (check), get a job (check), and clean the house (not check, but it wouldn't be THAT hard to do....). so now i've done two of the things i thought i had to do to be able to get a dog and now she's all "i just don't think i can handle another animal... you know the dog would just end up being MY dog because you'd never be here...." blah blah blah blah blah. bullshit. It would be my fucking dog. I would feed it, play with it, when i go over to chris' house for extended periods, my dog could come with me. she just fucking wanted to use my hopes and dreams of having my very own puppy to motivate me to make her more money. bitch bitch bitch. she actually said (during the conversation where i found out i wasn't allowed to keep any of the money) "all i want is for you to be happy" biiiiiiiiiiiiitch then why are you taking away my happiness? i was angry enough the first round that she said i could keep SOME of it. which is where the 700/943 came in. but the second time i COULD have taken the money. i probably should have. but it was a matter of principle. she has made it very clear to me that me paying off my debt is my top priority. she'll tell you otherwise... but thats a bunch of bullshit. right now, it IS my top priority so i can be fucking done with my parents. after i have broken ties with them (paying off debt) then i can save money to MOVE THE FUCK AWAY FROM HERE AND ALL THE RETARDED BULLSHIT. saving and paying off debt. i guess even though i have a job i'll still be living like i'm poor. but i'm ok with that. as long as it gets me closer to canada.
and a funnier note, i left for work an hour early today- but thankfully realized it before i left the neighborhood. i would have felt very silly getting there an hour early. x_x i guess i'm just overly excited about my new line of work. =0D thanks chris for telling me to apply there!!! **Hugs**
it just pisses me off. my mom has been saying that she doesn't care if i have a dog, and its my dad i have to convince now. or i'll say i want one and she'll say "you know what you need to do" meaning (so i thought) that i needed to sell the stratus (check), get a job (check), and clean the house (not check, but it wouldn't be THAT hard to do....). so now i've done two of the things i thought i had to do to be able to get a dog and now she's all "i just don't think i can handle another animal... you know the dog would just end up being MY dog because you'd never be here...." blah blah blah blah blah. bullshit. It would be my fucking dog. I would feed it, play with it, when i go over to chris' house for extended periods, my dog could come with me. she just fucking wanted to use my hopes and dreams of having my very own puppy to motivate me to make her more money. bitch bitch bitch. she actually said (during the conversation where i found out i wasn't allowed to keep any of the money) "all i want is for you to be happy" biiiiiiiiiiiiitch then why are you taking away my happiness? i was angry enough the first round that she said i could keep SOME of it. which is where the 700/943 came in. but the second time i COULD have taken the money. i probably should have. but it was a matter of principle. she has made it very clear to me that me paying off my debt is my top priority. she'll tell you otherwise... but thats a bunch of bullshit. right now, it IS my top priority so i can be fucking done with my parents. after i have broken ties with them (paying off debt) then i can save money to MOVE THE FUCK AWAY FROM HERE AND ALL THE RETARDED BULLSHIT. saving and paying off debt. i guess even though i have a job i'll still be living like i'm poor. but i'm ok with that. as long as it gets me closer to canada.
and a funnier note, i left for work an hour early today- but thankfully realized it before i left the neighborhood. i would have felt very silly getting there an hour early. x_x i guess i'm just overly excited about my new line of work. =0D thanks chris for telling me to apply there!!! **Hugs**