Why can't I get you out my mind?
Oh my gosh, you guys just dont understand.
There hasnt been a day yet that I stopped crying.
I lay in my bed at night and just start thinkin of the memories we had.
Its like, they wont go away for anything.
I was even "talkin" to someone, but still his thoughts remained.
Everything I do, has a memory of him.
I dont like bein home by myself cause I tend to think of him all the time.
Im sure you all know Im talkin about Blair.
Its like, I want to be with him so bad.
I see him everyday and its so hard.
There is things tellin me to leave him alone, but things tellin not to.
I really dont even want to be with me after what happened.
But its just.. nothin gets my mind off my him.
I cry everyday of that boy, and my friends TRY to help me.
And everyone tells me to move on and let him go.
You just dont know how much I try to do that.
Not many people like him anymore after what happened with us, but..
I just cant help myself sometimes.
I mean, me and Shawn were talkin and I liked him, and he seems like he would treat me right.
But its kinna hard to see him sometimes, cause he lives in Prairiville.
I would like that very much though.
And Blair isnt doin any good with the people he is hangin out with now.
He is gettin in trouble, not doin good at all
When me and him were (whutever we were doin) he wasnt like that, he was always with me sam and bj.
He was keepin his life strait, doin good with himself.
I mean, he just wasnt the same person he is now.
I wish I could help him, but it seems that he dont want anything to do with me anymore.
I wish I could even just be friends with him, and i think that is hurtin me more.
Knowin that we cant even be friends.
I think it would be alright, if we were friends.
Cause I could still talk to him.
But me just knowin that we aint even friends anymore, hurts me to death.
I mean, he ses Hey to me sometimes, but we dont really talk anymore.
I wish I could find someone that loves me for me and not just sex.
I tend to give it up alot, but I just cant sey NO to anyone.
And im sure that is why people fuck me over the way they do.
I need to stop, and listen to my heart, not my head.
I hate the way I think.
I hate the way I act.
Im startin to not even like me anymore.
I cant explain it and im sure you all think im stupid or soemthing.
But Javan and Samantha are the only people I can tell my feelings too.
I need to let things out sometimes.
Becuase me keepin all this in me, isnt doin me a bit of good.
I wish I could find someone that just loves me for me.
That cares me for the way that I would care for them.
Me and Shawn talk, and hopefully things will work out with us.
Hes really sweet, and I like talkin to him.
I love the people he hangs out with.
His best friend, is pretty much my best friend.
I like hangin around people that I like.
Well im pretty sure you are tired of hearin my bullshit.
So imma go now.
Someone please help me.. do something.
I love you guys.
And please keep in touch.
Much Love.
Javan and Sam. I appreaciate everything you guys have ever done for me. I know
I dont show it to much but, I try. All my feelings come out at the wrong times.
Im sorry for that, but always remember, I love you two no matter what. You will
ALWAYS be my best friends, and I am always here for you, and I know, no matter what.
You guys will always be there for me. We have been friends forever now, and nothin
has changed yet. I love you two and NEVER forget that.
*!~Best Friends Means Friends Forever.~!*
Much Loveeee!!!!
There hasnt been a day yet that I stopped crying.
I lay in my bed at night and just start thinkin of the memories we had.
Its like, they wont go away for anything.
I was even "talkin" to someone, but still his thoughts remained.
Everything I do, has a memory of him.
I dont like bein home by myself cause I tend to think of him all the time.
Im sure you all know Im talkin about Blair.
Its like, I want to be with him so bad.
I see him everyday and its so hard.
There is things tellin me to leave him alone, but things tellin not to.
I really dont even want to be with me after what happened.
But its just.. nothin gets my mind off my him.
I cry everyday of that boy, and my friends TRY to help me.
And everyone tells me to move on and let him go.
You just dont know how much I try to do that.
Not many people like him anymore after what happened with us, but..
I just cant help myself sometimes.
I mean, me and Shawn were talkin and I liked him, and he seems like he would treat me right.
But its kinna hard to see him sometimes, cause he lives in Prairiville.
I would like that very much though.
And Blair isnt doin any good with the people he is hangin out with now.
He is gettin in trouble, not doin good at all
When me and him were (whutever we were doin) he wasnt like that, he was always with me sam and bj.
He was keepin his life strait, doin good with himself.
I mean, he just wasnt the same person he is now.
I wish I could help him, but it seems that he dont want anything to do with me anymore.
I wish I could even just be friends with him, and i think that is hurtin me more.
Knowin that we cant even be friends.
I think it would be alright, if we were friends.
Cause I could still talk to him.
But me just knowin that we aint even friends anymore, hurts me to death.
I mean, he ses Hey to me sometimes, but we dont really talk anymore.
I wish I could find someone that loves me for me and not just sex.
I tend to give it up alot, but I just cant sey NO to anyone.
And im sure that is why people fuck me over the way they do.
I need to stop, and listen to my heart, not my head.
I hate the way I think.
I hate the way I act.
Im startin to not even like me anymore.
I cant explain it and im sure you all think im stupid or soemthing.
But Javan and Samantha are the only people I can tell my feelings too.
I need to let things out sometimes.
Becuase me keepin all this in me, isnt doin me a bit of good.
I wish I could find someone that just loves me for me.
That cares me for the way that I would care for them.
Me and Shawn talk, and hopefully things will work out with us.
Hes really sweet, and I like talkin to him.
I love the people he hangs out with.
His best friend, is pretty much my best friend.
I like hangin around people that I like.
Well im pretty sure you are tired of hearin my bullshit.
So imma go now.
Someone please help me.. do something.
I love you guys.
And please keep in touch.
Much Love.
Javan and Sam. I appreaciate everything you guys have ever done for me. I know
I dont show it to much but, I try. All my feelings come out at the wrong times.
Im sorry for that, but always remember, I love you two no matter what. You will
ALWAYS be my best friends, and I am always here for you, and I know, no matter what.
You guys will always be there for me. We have been friends forever now, and nothin
has changed yet. I love you two and NEVER forget that.
*!~Best Friends Means Friends Forever.~!*
Much Loveeee!!!!