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the whole time ive been here ive been fine, excluding the first couple days. but since then ive been fine. i havnt been thinking about missing pat. i did miss him and thought about HIM, but i wouldnt let myself think about what i was missing out on. well last night i did that and ever since ive been a wreck. during the day i was kinda alright. i kept on doing this to keep my mind off of it. but tonight on the phone with him i just broke down. seeing moog and steve together doesnt help much eathier. i am very happy i am here with moog n steve because i miss them a lot n NEver get to see them but i cannot believe that i am so far away from my baby who i love so much. we spent ever day together and it was so wonderful. now when i thnk about that i just cry because i cant even touch him or kiss him. i cannot believe i put myself into this situation.
today i got up and studied for a while. i watched the beginning of stepford wives...the part i missed. then i took a bath in moogs huge tub. its a garden tub. i love it. i got a call from my baby but i could only tell him i love him and we had to wait to talk until 9 pm. after that we ate dinner. we watched the aviator and that was an alright movie. i didnt talk to my baby because i was watching it. then i only got to talk to him for a little bit which made me really sad but i know he had to go to bed. i really miss him sooo much.
i think i am going to go eat something, then do my crunchs, then go to bed. it sucks i cant do them on the floor because it really hurts my back and neck bad. so i have to do them on the bed.
bye
today i got up and studied for a while. i watched the beginning of stepford wives...the part i missed. then i took a bath in moogs huge tub. its a garden tub. i love it. i got a call from my baby but i could only tell him i love him and we had to wait to talk until 9 pm. after that we ate dinner. we watched the aviator and that was an alright movie. i didnt talk to my baby because i was watching it. then i only got to talk to him for a little bit which made me really sad but i know he had to go to bed. i really miss him sooo much.
i think i am going to go eat something, then do my crunchs, then go to bed. it sucks i cant do them on the floor because it really hurts my back and neck bad. so i have to do them on the bed.
bye