ill be just fine pretending im not...
well easter was pretty good. we got up and my mom got us alll baskets and filled them up with so0o much candy. and i feel bad because i really dont like candy :/ but ill eat it all because i love my mom and she loves us so she wanted to do something nice. she wasnt expecting us to give her a basket. everyone took showers and then we went over to my aunts. it was alright. it just makes me sad that i never get to see my family anymore really. we used to be so0o close. and now i never see them. i really miss cathy and jaimie a lot. i want to hang out with them. but we all have different things going on with our lives.
i cannot wait for my books to come. i am gonna start studying right away and study every single day almost all day long. because i want to do that and i want to kinda get it done quickly so that i can get my job soon. i want to work at the detroit zoo because i love animals. and some things that i learn about i cannot remember at all, but when i watch things about animals on the animal planet or discovery channel it just sticks with me and i love those kind of shows and i love animals. i cannot wait to get started.
i hate sleeping and love it at the same time. i wish we never had to sleep. because its a waste. lately i just cant sleep. i mean i can if i make myself but i just dont want to. id rather be doing something else. lifes only so short so why waste it. and then once i fall asleep it is so hard for me to get up and i hate that. from now on i am making myself get up the first time my body wakes me up. even if im really tired, i know ill be happy once im up.
tommorow i am going to wash my blanket and my clothes and my carpet. the carpet needs to be washed badly. i just cant move all of the electronics though so i just cant get them wet. thats why i havnt washed the carpet yet. but now its starting to get warmer and idk ive kept the room very clean but deep clean like dusting and washing the blankets and the floor. so im gonna keep doing that now too. i help out around the house but i dont even care anymore if its dirty downstairs. because i try to help out. i usually clean the kitchen everyday as my chore. but if nobody else is gonna help out with the rest of the house than neither am i. if everyone did i would too. not only that though but the messes besides the kitchen are just everyones stuff that they left all over. as long as my room is clean that shows that that is a reflection of me.
i really miss pebbles. i havnt seen her in a while. i cant wait for us to hang out again. i really miss moog too. i want to call her tommorow. late at night like this i just miss all these people and want to talk to them. i do during the day too, but i have all of this other stuff thats on my mind and that i have to do. but tommorow im callin moog and steve.
welpers its around 2 40 am so i guess i should get to sleep. theres nothin else to do.
bye.
i cannot wait for my books to come. i am gonna start studying right away and study every single day almost all day long. because i want to do that and i want to kinda get it done quickly so that i can get my job soon. i want to work at the detroit zoo because i love animals. and some things that i learn about i cannot remember at all, but when i watch things about animals on the animal planet or discovery channel it just sticks with me and i love those kind of shows and i love animals. i cannot wait to get started.
i hate sleeping and love it at the same time. i wish we never had to sleep. because its a waste. lately i just cant sleep. i mean i can if i make myself but i just dont want to. id rather be doing something else. lifes only so short so why waste it. and then once i fall asleep it is so hard for me to get up and i hate that. from now on i am making myself get up the first time my body wakes me up. even if im really tired, i know ill be happy once im up.
tommorow i am going to wash my blanket and my clothes and my carpet. the carpet needs to be washed badly. i just cant move all of the electronics though so i just cant get them wet. thats why i havnt washed the carpet yet. but now its starting to get warmer and idk ive kept the room very clean but deep clean like dusting and washing the blankets and the floor. so im gonna keep doing that now too. i help out around the house but i dont even care anymore if its dirty downstairs. because i try to help out. i usually clean the kitchen everyday as my chore. but if nobody else is gonna help out with the rest of the house than neither am i. if everyone did i would too. not only that though but the messes besides the kitchen are just everyones stuff that they left all over. as long as my room is clean that shows that that is a reflection of me.
i really miss pebbles. i havnt seen her in a while. i cant wait for us to hang out again. i really miss moog too. i want to call her tommorow. late at night like this i just miss all these people and want to talk to them. i do during the day too, but i have all of this other stuff thats on my mind and that i have to do. but tommorow im callin moog and steve.
welpers its around 2 40 am so i guess i should get to sleep. theres nothin else to do.
bye.