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i really cant believe this. how can he just do this out of no where.. with no explanation.. nothing.. atleast i gave you an explanation each time.. and i talked to you when you asked me to talk to you.. i answered the phone.. why do i deserve this? cause i dont. i dont deserve to be treated like this.. tomorrow will be a week since ive seen you and sunday a week since we spoke. if i do not hear from him by sunday....if he lets it go that long.. than wow... fucking wow.. how are you going to start my month for me without me even knowing? im so hurt and pissed but i cant even be mad. i asked for this. and as fucked up as it is i know its what i need. i just wish ihad an explanation. we didnt fight. so why are you doing this? if i knew that saturday was the last time ill see you i would have given you your stuff. i would have given you a real hug and told you that i will always love you. but no, you didnt give me that chance.. you wont even message or text me back. i messaged him.. lets see what happens. i swear. if he doesnt talk to me bysunday imdone. this time its for good.. he will give me the push ineed. im tired of these games.. they aregetting so old..