on a serious note.
i just found a cd from 10th grade that rebecca lord made for me. its so weird how many memories it brings back. ha, and its really good music too. that was right about when i started to find the kind of music i liked, not just what was played on the radio. and its also when i started to completely be myself. i mean, its not like i wasn't me before that but i just did what my friends did and not in a peer pressure type way ha. i used to always wanna dress like my friends and just be exactly like them. i dont do that anymore. it upsets me when parents and just adults assume that your friends influence EVERYTHING you do. they'll be like oh who said that. uhhh...i think for myself!? if you look at my friends we're all really different but we still all hang out and have fun...i like that. instead of all dressing, looking, and acting alike. it's so weird looking back at how much i have changed and grown up since just freshman year. like the things i've done and how my friends have changed...its soooo...gah weird. high school really is where you grow up and become yourself, well i take that back, its where SOME people grow up...and then there are the other people where its just hopeless. ha
i'm being a total hypocrite but i went to church this morning and i actually enjoyed it. i'll give it to taylors, they we not at all pushy and annoying and all churchy, like i expected. i liked it because i got to see john, katie, kelly, and sarah. i dont get to see any of them minus sarah (ha) at school. i actually think i'll go back next sunday. i just went to sunday school, i dont really wanna go to the service thing. i'm not sure what i believe at all and i'm not into the whole church thing but i think i'll go and just make my parents happy because it wasn't too bad after all. but we shall see, its only been one sunday.
okay this is really long and boring...sorrrrrrrrrrry, i rambled on and on. oh yea, i'm kinda thinking of going friends only because its kinda strange not knowing whos reading all my weird/random lj entrys ha. but its also annoying when i read random peoples ljs and then they go friends only so i'll think about it.
me.
i'm being a total hypocrite but i went to church this morning and i actually enjoyed it. i'll give it to taylors, they we not at all pushy and annoying and all churchy, like i expected. i liked it because i got to see john, katie, kelly, and sarah. i dont get to see any of them minus sarah (ha) at school. i actually think i'll go back next sunday. i just went to sunday school, i dont really wanna go to the service thing. i'm not sure what i believe at all and i'm not into the whole church thing but i think i'll go and just make my parents happy because it wasn't too bad after all. but we shall see, its only been one sunday.
okay this is really long and boring...sorrrrrrrrrrry, i rambled on and on. oh yea, i'm kinda thinking of going friends only because its kinda strange not knowing whos reading all my weird/random lj entrys ha. but its also annoying when i read random peoples ljs and then they go friends only so i'll think about it.
me.