Nothing new.
It's gotten to that point where no one and I mean no one bothers with this anymore. I used to be able to count on at least 3 people to update and update often enough for me to want to continue updating my own. I think I'll call it quits for a few months or at least until something outstanding happens. I'll check it every so often to see if anyone has anything to say and if they're lucky I might comment. I just feel as if the internet has come down to facebook, myspace, and livejournal. Physical contact is dead. Phone calls are an urban legend. If I don't see you at work or you live in my immediate area we probably don't speak except for those 3 outlets. I want to stray from that. I want to show up on your doorstep with a hearty greeting and a firm embrace. I want to go back to a time before text messaging. I swore to myself I'd never get into it and that it was the dumbest form of communication and now I have a $10 plan added on to my phone bill for unlimited texts. This was to just stop the high costs of people sending them to me, but now I'm just as bad as everyone else. It's completely impersonal.
Just a few things to add before I take off:
1. Warped Tour is on a friday and it's my goal to get everyone off work that needs to be there with me.
2. I'm starting to write lyrics.
3. I'm reading more even if they are graphic novels.
4. I think I like this girl but communication is scarce.
5. Can I ever really let someone fully in on everything in my life?
6. When I mention I'm religious and a Christian I feel others tend to look at me different.
7. It seems every time I strengthen a friendship another fades.
8. Potentially I'm at risk for having substances take control of me.
9. My best friend scares me at times and I blame his lack of confidence on the lack of a male role model in his youth.
10. I still think people find me fake. (even when I'm more genuine than anyone else I know)
Number ten is really just how I've felt since I've been breathing. Nothing will ever change that feeling because it's my own insecurity. Take it all in and I'll see you guys around hopefully.
~~~"This is the weight of my conscience this is an all-time low."
Just a few things to add before I take off:
1. Warped Tour is on a friday and it's my goal to get everyone off work that needs to be there with me.
2. I'm starting to write lyrics.
3. I'm reading more even if they are graphic novels.
4. I think I like this girl but communication is scarce.
5. Can I ever really let someone fully in on everything in my life?
6. When I mention I'm religious and a Christian I feel others tend to look at me different.
7. It seems every time I strengthen a friendship another fades.
8. Potentially I'm at risk for having substances take control of me.
9. My best friend scares me at times and I blame his lack of confidence on the lack of a male role model in his youth.
10. I still think people find me fake. (even when I'm more genuine than anyone else I know)
Number ten is really just how I've felt since I've been breathing. Nothing will ever change that feeling because it's my own insecurity. Take it all in and I'll see you guys around hopefully.
~~~"This is the weight of my conscience this is an all-time low."