"Well, I looked around this crazy place and tried to make some sense of it...'
long time, no update. i haven't had anything really to write about, but recently, i've had a new realization. new thoughts, different ways of thinking, it makes things feel not so bad and moves the day along just a little faster.
things have been pulling together lately in such a weird, curiously coincidental way. it sort of makes me believe that the whole "ask and you shall recieve" adage is true. i think optimism is constantly lurking around every corner and knocking on your door, but most people are too dense to realize it, or even want to.
i've always wanted to meet people who were more like me, believed in the same things as me, thought the same way as me, people i could learn from, and people who i could just sit with and talk, share thoughts on things that really matter. these past few weeks, i've met more people like that then ever. it just seems like things are finally falling into place for me.
also, after almost losing 2 of my best friends and having a huge family fight, they sort have put things in a new perspective for me. for some reason, i feel like those things were meant to happen. not only for the people it happened to, but for me too. because from them, i've learned so much.
i don't want to be part of the everyday cycle people are sucked into. i don't want to be just life's spectator, i want to be in it.
i don't know what brought about this change. i just thought to myself, i don't want to be depressed anymore, i admit to not being able to do this on my own, and i have so much i want to do that i can't bring myself to do and that needs to change.i think there is a way to live your life optimally, but you have to keep your eyes open for that chance to be happy that's always there urging you on. also, instead of getting upset over the stupid things that go on, i secretly laugh at the ridiculousness of the played out situation. that way, i can avoid any tension that would come out of my anger.
i can honestly say that right now, i'm a genuinely happy person. =)
"Took a long time to get where i am now
and i'm not gonna sit around wondering how, NO"
things have been pulling together lately in such a weird, curiously coincidental way. it sort of makes me believe that the whole "ask and you shall recieve" adage is true. i think optimism is constantly lurking around every corner and knocking on your door, but most people are too dense to realize it, or even want to.
i've always wanted to meet people who were more like me, believed in the same things as me, thought the same way as me, people i could learn from, and people who i could just sit with and talk, share thoughts on things that really matter. these past few weeks, i've met more people like that then ever. it just seems like things are finally falling into place for me.
also, after almost losing 2 of my best friends and having a huge family fight, they sort have put things in a new perspective for me. for some reason, i feel like those things were meant to happen. not only for the people it happened to, but for me too. because from them, i've learned so much.
i don't want to be part of the everyday cycle people are sucked into. i don't want to be just life's spectator, i want to be in it.
i don't know what brought about this change. i just thought to myself, i don't want to be depressed anymore, i admit to not being able to do this on my own, and i have so much i want to do that i can't bring myself to do and that needs to change.i think there is a way to live your life optimally, but you have to keep your eyes open for that chance to be happy that's always there urging you on. also, instead of getting upset over the stupid things that go on, i secretly laugh at the ridiculousness of the played out situation. that way, i can avoid any tension that would come out of my anger.
i can honestly say that right now, i'm a genuinely happy person. =)
"Took a long time to get where i am now
and i'm not gonna sit around wondering how, NO"