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Reading back through here, my senior year rocked. I was really lucky. I still am.
I have another journal that I write in (this one on paper, and with a pen)
While this can be really happy, that is alll ickysadgross feelings.
I have decided that my life is like firework shrapnel. When I'm happy, I can hardly contain myself long enough to type, let alone write. But when I'm sad (an honest rarity) that's something I do to feel better.
So my joy isn't linear.
Which is why my life story is so god damn depressing. ; )
Going to school at UMFlintTown now. I love it. I love being in college. I like all the new people I've met and everything I'm doing and being able to discuss and debate and argue in class with people who actually care! Its fantastic. And I'm still being stupid. Premeditated stupid infact, I have great plans for this saturday. This summer was the summer I learned how dumb I can be when I go to extremes. I just let go. But this semester...I think I'm learning how to have fun but not go too far.
And I'm learning not to think about boys amillion miles away who don't think about you back.
Katie is at GVSU this year. (and for many years to come)
It's wierd how you think you honestly can't live without someone and then their gone and you are still okay.
Remember when I had to learn who I was all over again with Jordan?
Now I have to do it without Katie. It's harder. She was (and is, and is to come) my best friend.
I love her more.
But I'm doing okay : ]
Actually I'm kicking ass.
Taking Sadie (my puppy!) for a run, then going to sleep.
School tomorrow. ; ]
I have another journal that I write in (this one on paper, and with a pen)
While this can be really happy, that is alll ickysadgross feelings.
I have decided that my life is like firework shrapnel. When I'm happy, I can hardly contain myself long enough to type, let alone write. But when I'm sad (an honest rarity) that's something I do to feel better.
So my joy isn't linear.
Which is why my life story is so god damn depressing. ; )
Going to school at UMFlintTown now. I love it. I love being in college. I like all the new people I've met and everything I'm doing and being able to discuss and debate and argue in class with people who actually care! Its fantastic. And I'm still being stupid. Premeditated stupid infact, I have great plans for this saturday. This summer was the summer I learned how dumb I can be when I go to extremes. I just let go. But this semester...I think I'm learning how to have fun but not go too far.
And I'm learning not to think about boys amillion miles away who don't think about you back.
Katie is at GVSU this year. (and for many years to come)
It's wierd how you think you honestly can't live without someone and then their gone and you are still okay.
Remember when I had to learn who I was all over again with Jordan?
Now I have to do it without Katie. It's harder. She was (and is, and is to come) my best friend.
I love her more.
But I'm doing okay : ]
Actually I'm kicking ass.
Taking Sadie (my puppy!) for a run, then going to sleep.
School tomorrow. ; ]