A Dancing 'verse Mix
You know, oddly, it never even occured to me to use Jonas Brothers or TAI songs in these fanmixes until it was suggested/rules were made about it in the challenge. So of course the TAI song was the first one I picked for this story. So anyway, here is my mixtape for skoosiepants 's Dancing Without Warning
The mix can be donloaded at mediafire here
1. You Found Me - The Fray
I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything"
But, yeah, it’s really rare for Kevin to get any time to himself, so he doesn’t actually know how it happened, but he’s currently stuck in his hotel elevator sans, well, everybody, except for a vaguely scary guy slumped along the rail, arms crossed over his chest and dark hair hanging over his eyes.
Kevin can’t see it, but he can feel the guy’s gaze on him. Intense, but not the kind of stare where, like, he recognizes and admires him. More like the kind of stare a lion gives a baby antelope, like he’s really looking forward to a tasty, easy meal.
Kevin swallows down a meep and tips his head back to stare at the numbers as they light up, one by one, and it’s got to be the slowest elevator ride in the history of all elevator rides ever. He’s definitely not thinking about how small the elevator is, and how it’s like the AC is broken or something, because he’s maybe starting to sweat a lot.
“Hey,” the guy says, low and stretched out like glue.
2. When the Day met the Night - Panic
When the sun found the moon
She was drinking tea in a garden
Under the green umbrella trees
In the middle of summer
When the moon found the sun
He looked like he was barely hanging on
But her eyes saved his life
In the middle of summer
Kevin stands there, numb, as the doors slid closed again, sees himself distorted in the shiny metal. He just got molested by a drunken guy in an elevator. He hadn’t actually wanted to stop being molested by said drunken guy.
He circles his fingers around a now bare throat, palm pressing into the unbuttoned neck of his Henley. He’s a total moron. He’s never ever telling anyone about this. Ever.
3. Fall Back Into Me - David Cook
When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me, oh
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?
Before it can possibly get even more awkward, though, Joe swings by and pulls Kevin off with one of the many clipboard wielding techs hanging around, and Kevin finds himself blinking unsteadily into bright stage lights, the crowd a familiar deafening roar.
There’s five minutes of banter, there’s Joe being a ham and Kevin - intentionally, thank you very much - being an idiot and Nick finally announcing the band.
Kevin recognizes William Beckett, strutting towards the front of the stage, and he recognizes Butcher behind his kit. And then he recognizes the drunk guy from the elevator. He’s got Kevin’s scarf draped around his neck. Great. The whole conversation with William makes a little more sense now.
4. Love Instead - Anarbor
And I am weak to your affection, babe
All I need is your attention
I love you to death, but to you I am
Well, I love you to death, but to you I'm already dead
Mike quirks an amused, wolfish grin. He leans towards Kevin, so close their hips are almost touching, and it works in this party crowd; no one’ll notice the way his mouth hovers along Kevin’s jaw as he says, “You might want to stop staring at me like that, Jonas, or I’ll have to twist that pretty little ring off your finger.”
Kevin can feel his eyes get huge. “You, um.”
“That’s right.” Mike reaches up and tugs on one of Kevin’s curls. “Think about it, kid,” he says, then saunters off, slicing through the packed bodies surrounding the bar.
5. Doris Day - Jack’s Mannequin
I saw your man
A fast car and a dark sun tan
You said he's in a punk rock band
Well baby, punk rock's dead
Oh well
We can drink 'til you forget about him
It's not like he waits up for you
I'm sure he'd do the same thing too
“I’m entirely too sober for this situation,” William says.
“I’m fine,” Kevin says, and he’s totally fine, he just thinks maybe the whole of Cobra Starship didn’t exactly have the best of intentions with their yummy, fruity drinks and their, ‘You look down!’s and their, ‘Something pink will cheer you up!’s.
--
“This is catchy,” Joe says, hooking his chin onto Kevin’s shoulder, “your boyfriend kind of rocks, dude,” and holy crap, Kevin has a boyfriend. He’s meeting his boyfriend’s mom.
He waits for the overwhelming panic to set in, waits for the nausea, but it doesn’t come. His cheeks still feel hot and his smile grows a little every time Mike tosses a glance his way, every time he shakes his hair out of his eyes, pulls his shirt up to wipe at his face.
Joe hmmms, taps his foot up against Kevin’s, says, “He’s hot, too.”
6. Chemical Party - Gavin DeGraw
Here at the party,
Everyone's happy,
Everyone's high.
Get struck by lightning
Who here would feel it?
Who here could heal it?
Who here would try?
“Gabe Saporta is a corrupter of innocents.”
Kevin blinks blearily up, and up some more. William has a hand on his hip, the other wrapped around a clear bottle.
“We already knew that.”
William waggles a finger at the guy next to Kevin. “You, Jonny Walker, must needs. Um.” He leans forward, wobbly, and braces himself with a hand on Kevin’s shoulder. “Shut the fuck up, Walker, we’re playing truth or dare.”
“Because we’re secretly thirteen-year-old girls.”
7. Checkmarks - The Academy Is…
So there you are,
And here I stand,
As far as I remember you weren't half bad.
Your bedroom behavior was never more then checkmarks on bedposts.
More I remember we never had.
“Let me get this straight,” Nick says, ignoring Joe’s snickers. “You accidentally implied that Mike Carden is a rapist.”
Kevin doesn’t think that’s the most salient point here, but, “You make it sound really bad. It’s not that bad.”
“You upset Mike Carden,” Nick says. He says it like it’s so hard to do, which Kevin seriously doubts, and it’s not like Nick’s ever met Mike before anyway, so what does he know?
8. Autumn - Sparks the Rescue
Think back, think back, to the summertime
I would cross through these state lines
You were always on my mind
It should not be this hard to see
How to get from point A to B
Without losing sleep, without losing sleep
“Okay,” Kevin says, and actually does relax. A little. “How did you-”
“One of your twins told me where you were.”
Kevin makes a face. “We’re not twins.” That doesn’t even make sense. There’s three of them, first of all, and Nick can’t even drive yet.
“Yeah,” Mike says, tucking his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. “I don’t really care.”
Fair enough, Kevin thinks. He scratches the side of his chin and tries not to be awkward. It’s not really working. “So, um, did you want something?”
When Mike’s grin turns just a shade wicked, Kevin thinks maybe he didn’t ruin everything forever after all.
9. Los Angeles - The Audition
I know it's cold, but baby maybe we can stay a little longer
Then warm up those toes, the last thing we need is to blow our cover
And I know it's tough to reconsider what you thought was love
But I'm so proud of all the plans you're speaking of
Two months later, Kevin’s in New York and TAI’s doing Saturday Night Live’s Thanksgiving show, and Kevin and Mike had left it kind of aimless back in Chicago - Mike texts him a lot, and Kevin usually calls him before he goes to sleep, even if only half the time Mike actually picks up - so Kevin’s in the middle of biting his nails down to the quick when William opens the door to Mike’s hotel room.
10. A Story to Tell Your Friends - Every Avenue
Don't go away again, I want to be more than a phone call at 4 A.M.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to steal my heart and leave
Don't go away again, I want to be more than a story to tell your friends
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to make me fall again
Kevin blushes a little. He likes his white pants, thanks very much, and so does the wardrobe department. “What are you doing here?” he asks. When Nick had shoved him down the hallway and told him to get some air, he definitely hadn’t been expecting Mike.
“I can go,” Mike says. He straightens up, takes a step away from the wall, but he still looks amused.
“Um.” Kevin hasn’t heard from Mike in a week and a half, not since their first episode aired. He’d just figured-he’d figured Mike had gotten bored, and he couldn’t really blame him. Kevin isn’t exactly sure what they’re doing, but the long-distance aspect sucks, and it’s not like Kevin’s, you know, putting out or anything. It’s almost like they’re weirdly implausible friends. Who occasionally kiss.
11. Use Somebody - Paramore (cover)
Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
“This isn’t the best idea we’ve ever had,” Kevin says, a little breathless.
“It’s your fault. What the fuck is this, a corset?”
“It’s a waistcoat.”
“With laces, fuck, I’m tempted to call you an actual girl except there’s ample evidence against that,” Mike says, thigh pushing up into Kevin’s groin, and Kevin is, like, five shades of embarrassed, but arches up into Mike anyway.
“You didn’t call me,” Kevin says, fingers scrabbling to grab hold of Mike’s biceps as Mike’s arms slip around his waist.
12. The Hero Dies in This One - The Ataris
As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.
Mike huffs a laugh into his throat, stills against him. “Too busy feeling guilty for wanting into your pants, kid. You’re on the fucking Disney Channel.”
“So you’re a pervert,” Kevin laughs.
“Hell, yeah.” Mike pulls back and tugs Kevin with him, hopping up onto the sink counter and maneuvering Kevin between spread knees. He’s got a suit jacket on over a Jonas Brothers t-shirt, because he’s an asshole, and Kevin’s never actually seen him in anything other than jeans before. There are sharp creases in Mike’s pants, and tasteful, barely there pinstripes. Kevin smoothes his palms over them, over where they’re taut on Mike’s thighs, up to his gaping pockets, curling two fingers into each and holding on.
13. Anything But Fine - Zox
If I could make you a tape with all the right noise,
would you smile when you listen and sigh boys will be boys?
If I could paint you a picture I’d turn black into white.
By now I’m not looking for love I’m just looking for tonight
One week before Valentine’s Day, Kevin gets Mike on the phone even though Kevin knows it’s early where they are - Mike’s probably minutes from the stage.
“My mom wants to meet you,” Mike says.
“She’s a fan?” Kevin says absently, tearing open a package of gummy bears, sitting cross-legged in the middle of his hotel bed, and then Mike’s words fully register and he nearly bites his tongue in half.
There’s a long, foreboding, almost scary silence.
Finally, Mike says, “Yes, Kevin, yes, she’s a fan, what the fuck,” and Kevin’s kind of thrown by the use of his first name, so it takes a moment to register that Mike’s hung up on him.
Kevin immediately calls him back and says, “I didn’t mean that.”
14. Waste My Time - Bedlight For Blue Eyes
Trying hard to keep my mind occupied
On the road for at least six weeks this time.
But satisfaction is the death of desire.
Baby I'm not satisfied.
I came home with the wood stacked in my arms.
And found out you found a new way to keep warm.
Kevin purses his lips. Yep, cranky. “Sorry,” Kevin says.
“Why the fuck are you sorry?” Mike asks, and Kevin makes a face at his cell.
“Look, uh, why don’t you call me later?” Kevin says, because he’s never been very good with Mike’s moods, and lately Kevin can tell he’s just been pissing Mike off. He’s hoping it’s just the distance, but it’s not like they’ve ever been in one place at the same time for very long, anyway. Kevin spends a good chunk of his year in LA, but Mike’s been touring essentially since they met back in September.
“Yeah, fine,” Mike says, and there’s a hesitation, a split-second audible drawn-in breath, like maybe he might say something else. He doesn’t, though; he just hangs up.
15. Sour Candy - Carly Rae Jepsen (f. Josh Ramsay)
Sour Candy, endings...
Coffee stained, but aware
oh I'm so tangled up in my
Big sunglasses and, bed hungry
Second day fair
He rubs his fingers over his eyes, blinking back tears, because Kevin is absolutely not going to cry over a guy who can’t even be bothered to actually dump him, like he thinks just fading away’ll be easier on both of them. In theory, that’s great. It’s not like Kevin wants Mike to tell him to his face how much of a loser he is.
In practice, though, it still really fucking hurts.
16. Masterpiece Theater III - Marianas Trench (in case this song's lyrics seem familiar to Celebrity Status this is the last song on this album and includes pieces from every single song on said album. I find it kind of amazin and the whole album overall is great.)
So here's another day, I'll spend away from you
Another night I'm on another broken avenue
Trading in who I've been for shiny celebrity skin
I like to push it, and push it until my luck is over
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder if you doubt it
I wonder how we used to ever go so long without it
All the work to impress
charming girls out of their dresses and smiling pretty, and pretty
Kevin spends the whole concert waiting for it to end, so he can just go home already. But then Nick insists they at least say hi to everyone and Joe is, like, enamored with Gabe Saporta, so he ends up getting dragged through security and into the back halls of the venue.
Hanging out backstage is a bad idea. Kevin stands behind Bonus and clamps his hands over his shoulders and tries to act like he isn’t using Bonus as a human shield against all the bad vibes pouring off of Mike when he spots him.
17. More - Gavin Mikhail
Far gone and you are still here
I'm not yours for the taking
Move on you've never been there for me
Useless and complaining
Of why you don't have more
And how your life has brought you crawling
To my door
It all comes down to nothing
Is that what you might say?
Or how it could be different
If it'd gone another way...
Mike sighs and runs a hand through his mop of sweaty hair. “You were freaking out over a photo, kid, I just cut us off at the knees, you know, before you had some big angst fest over coming out to your mom.”
Kevin blinks. “I’m. My mom knows, Mike.”
Mike looks tripped up for a second, then shrugs. “Okay, then-”
“My mom guessed when I was twelve,” Kevin says, for no reason other than the fact that he can’t believe Mike actually thought that, and he’s horrified to think that maybe he gave Mike that impression; that he wasn’t-well, he’s not out, obviously, but he’s never tried to hide anything from his family.
Mike shifts on his feet and nods and, if possible, his expression turns even harder - which is just completely baffling, and Kevin feels like he’s some sort of baby deer caught in a traffic jam; he has no idea what’s going on, and he just seems to keep making it worse.
18. Here Comes The… - Butch Walker
Here comes the heartache
The move out date
The excuses for my friends
Here comes the reason i have to justify It was better in the end
He ends the call before Mike can say anything, and then Nick’s looming over him, frowning.
“You are dumb,” Nick says.
“It’s called closure,” Kevin says.
“It’s called being dumb,” Nick says. “You’re still carrying that stupid US Weekly photo around in your wallet, Kev.”
“You still want his babies,” Joe says.
Kevin chokes off a laugh and presses the heel of his palm into his eye socket. “Well, yeah.” It’s just not going to make any difference.
19. You’re Making It Come Alive - My Favorite Highway
You can't disguise a heart while it's breaking
You hide behind the smile you're faking
It's all about the chance you're taking
Oh, and you know that you're making it all come alive
Kevin scratches the back of his neck. He says, “Don’t you-shouldn’t you be on a flight to Seattle now?” and then his throat heats up, since he’s essentially broadcasted the fact that he’s pathetic, and still looks at Mike’s touring schedule.
Mike nods his head, gives Kevin his profile as he squints down the alley of the back lot, and then he says, “Oh, fuck this,” and reaches out, curling a fist into Kevin’s shirt and reeling him in.
Mike tastes familiar, like smoke and mint, and Kevin automatically opens up for him, tilts his head and gasps into his mouth when Mike’s tongue sweeps through. He clutches at Mike’s shoulders and holds on even as Mike pulls back, swipes a slow thumb over Kevin’s lower lip