still it's a sharp shock to your soft side
you know what's fucking frustrating? i never thought i would be the person to punish somebody for someone else's mistake but eric fucking RUINED me. i don't trust anyone fully except my four best friends. i've learned to have low expectations and take what everyone says with a grain of salt because words mean nothing anymore, they're just promises that get ignored and abandoned when shit hits the fan and it's time to be selfish again.
what's even more terrible is that i had always been really insecure about my friendship with eric because i think deep down, i always knew i wanted and needed him more than he needed me. i thought that was okay as long as he was still my friend and he cared about me. but then ironically, when it was time to step up and prove that our friendship was everything we hoped it stood for, he left. he picked her. and in the most genuine and honest way, i'm glad he picked her if he is sincerely happy.
what's even more terrible is that i had always been really insecure about my friendship with eric because i think deep down, i always knew i wanted and needed him more than he needed me. i thought that was okay as long as he was still my friend and he cared about me. but then ironically, when it was time to step up and prove that our friendship was everything we hoped it stood for, he left. he picked her. and in the most genuine and honest way, i'm glad he picked her if he is sincerely happy.