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so yea christmas is coming soon. break is in a little while. my back is getting worse. and i am extremely bored in government right now.
i was very emotional on monday, i am very sorry. i am pms-ing and i didnt mean to hurt anyones feelings. i had to make a very tough decision and i wasnt supposed to talk to anyone about it. maybe if i was allowed to i wouldnt have been so moody. but i made my decision and it seems to have changed. but i still think its a bad deal. it wont be fair to me no matter what. for me its all or none at all. but i guess ill just take what i can get. even though i dont know if i should. if im not there ill miss it, but if i do it i hurt myself. but the deal is i just do certain parts, but i am still getting the one thing i truly love taken away from me. idk im just rambling, just ignore me.
i was very emotional on monday, i am very sorry. i am pms-ing and i didnt mean to hurt anyones feelings. i had to make a very tough decision and i wasnt supposed to talk to anyone about it. maybe if i was allowed to i wouldnt have been so moody. but i made my decision and it seems to have changed. but i still think its a bad deal. it wont be fair to me no matter what. for me its all or none at all. but i guess ill just take what i can get. even though i dont know if i should. if im not there ill miss it, but if i do it i hurt myself. but the deal is i just do certain parts, but i am still getting the one thing i truly love taken away from me. idk im just rambling, just ignore me.