sammy <3
i dont know if i should stay with him or not...like i love him and stuff but it seems like we fight alot more and i dunno if i still love him or not..hes the reason why i started cutting again..and he used to make me so happy and now he doesnt..hes always complaining about how im screwing up and bout how im sry for everything. last night he brought up my past..which i hate..hes syas he feelss like an assholefor going out with me bcuz hes hearing all the shit ive done over the summer with all the guys and i know its bad but theres nothing i can do about it...neces hosue is being rated cuz of gang stuff..sammy scares me with all the gang shit..idk wat do u ..io cant go anywhere anymoree without him thinking somethings going to happen to me.. i hate him sometimes..hes so different and it makes me not love him anymore..i cant break up with him i cant.. i swear i love him. i kno wat love is and thats wat i had..have,..i dunno..im so confused about us..nothing is going right..maybe i should break up with him for awhile..but will that help? i dunno..this isnt a healthy relationship. i just wont pick up the phone today,..so im just ganna stay at seans all day i guess.w.e