Halloween
Yes! Halloween nite... too bad i'm too old to go trick or treating, but i can still try. don't you hate how you can go from such a good mood to an awful mood in seriously seconds? it really sucks. At least last nite was really fun and funny. there are some good times there. today really kind of blew but what can you do? i don't know... can you miss something that you never had? sometimes it feels like there is something missing... but i have no idea what it is... it kind of trips me out. i thought senior year would be like the best time ever and it is, but at the same time it sucks. all of the pressure from college apps which i haven't really started. plus trying to figure out where you want to apply, where you want to stay for the next four years, and what you want to do with the rest of your life. i don't know.. it is too much stuff. Plus everyone in my family has such high expectations and i have always tried to meet them. but i don't know what i will do if i can't meet their expectations and my own. i wish i had someone real i could tell this all to but i don't. i think that is what i am missing. instead i am sitting here typing on my computer for the entire f-world to see. wow. this is retarded. i am done. this sucks.