read this entry.
before my sad/frusterated story...
i want everyone to read this...
and then COMMENT on how amazing this is.... because this shows you how TIMELESS dashboard confessional is.
alright.
so my mom. is in love with dashboard now. while im driving. i put on screaming infidelities. and she really liked it. and then i put on best deceptions. and she just went insane.
she said to put it on full blast in my room and we (me my sister and her) danced around the room screaming the lyrics. it was such great fun.
she thinks the music is amazing along with chris's voice. its amazing.
after she heard best deceptions she's all like 'that song was so intense. im so impressed and i really like this'
this is kind of strange. but im just surprised. parents usually hate the music we listen to.
okk okkk .... i know this isn't that great lol. but i think its such a nice thing.
after reading NOTHING FEELS GOOD and FINALLY finishing it... i have just so much more respect for chris carrabba and dashboard confessional. and hearing that momm likes them is just really great.
dashboard is timeless.
and just truly talented
and amazing.
today was absolutely horrible at night. then it got better...but before i went out I had a breakdown... well a few.
this is how it goes...
eric. (past like...so far from love) starts talking to me.
being all bitchy like "hey I hear your having a party and theres lots of crack and weed there"
i respond... "from who..."
"everybody"
uh, dousche. your gay. i wanted to say. i dont go to parties like that... CAUSE THERE FUCKING ARN"T ANY, and plus I have better things to do with my time. ok so thats besides the point.
then he goes on by saying
"well anyways if i went to a party with you, i would stick out because im like a bum and im not like all the tight asses in grosse pointe and blah blah blah"
and i say "well first of all your a bum because you want to be and you stick out becauase you feel like it, and you dont know what your even talking about, you make no sense"
and he SAYS... NOW GET READY FOR A TRUE ASSHOLE DUMBASS WHATEVER...
"well Im sorry that you arn't mesmerized by me."
WHAT THE FUCK. im sorry. who the fuck says that.
so i say "im sorry im not mezmerized that you try to be different and a bum. that does not mesmerize me."
and then he gets all bitchy and tries to turn the whole thing around on me, make me feel like shit because i 'dont understand him' and all this. and 'i used to say this and i used to say that...' well I WAS FOURTEEN THEN. That was like three years ago.
WHY THE HECK AM I STILL TAKLING TO HIM??
do you ever get that? wehre you have no idea why someone keeps popping up in your life and pissing you off? it makes no sense.
theres quite a lot mroe to the story..but this was bad enough.
im so sick of this.
its just like im freaking out. cause its like should i have just gone out with him? but i just cant. i feel like if i see him one more time something will happen. like im secretly missing him, in a way, but i dont want to. i just want to hate him so bad cause he always makes me feel like im wrong and bitchy..which is not hte case at all. im a nice person, i just upset when people try to make me feel like the wrong one in situations when all im doing is expressing my opinion.
so much fucking history. fuckers. now... he is a FUCKER. the ultimate.
i just cant stand him. i just want him to disapear. its been like almost 4 years now. sad. really sad. were not even friends. were nothing. yet we still talk like ive known him my whole life.
but all we do is fight. and i hate fighting. i just started freaking out. screaming at my mom and siter. cleaning my room frantically, cause thats what i do when i get stressed, and i just started takling to myself. its really bad.
how do i let this happen??
then i called chris.. and he of course was already out, probably with that girl and siad he would call back, but i highly doubt he will, so ill just call him. whatever. girls have to suffer so much. so much. so much. i hate it.
but then ONE good part is nick called to see if im going to the WARPED TOUR tomorrow. and i still dont know. i wish i had peopel to go with. NO ONE IS HOME! ahh.
sorry if this post annoyed anyone. cause it must sound kind of stupid/whiney/emotional. but whatever. your a FUCKER if it did bother you, cuase im truly expressing how i feel.
i hate saying sorry. yet i always do. its like i get sucked into doing it.
i want everyone to read this...
and then COMMENT on how amazing this is.... because this shows you how TIMELESS dashboard confessional is.
alright.
so my mom. is in love with dashboard now. while im driving. i put on screaming infidelities. and she really liked it. and then i put on best deceptions. and she just went insane.
she said to put it on full blast in my room and we (me my sister and her) danced around the room screaming the lyrics. it was such great fun.
she thinks the music is amazing along with chris's voice. its amazing.
after she heard best deceptions she's all like 'that song was so intense. im so impressed and i really like this'
this is kind of strange. but im just surprised. parents usually hate the music we listen to.
okk okkk .... i know this isn't that great lol. but i think its such a nice thing.
after reading NOTHING FEELS GOOD and FINALLY finishing it... i have just so much more respect for chris carrabba and dashboard confessional. and hearing that momm likes them is just really great.
dashboard is timeless.
and just truly talented
and amazing.
today was absolutely horrible at night. then it got better...but before i went out I had a breakdown... well a few.
this is how it goes...
eric. (past like...so far from love) starts talking to me.
being all bitchy like "hey I hear your having a party and theres lots of crack and weed there"
i respond... "from who..."
"everybody"
uh, dousche. your gay. i wanted to say. i dont go to parties like that... CAUSE THERE FUCKING ARN"T ANY, and plus I have better things to do with my time. ok so thats besides the point.
then he goes on by saying
"well anyways if i went to a party with you, i would stick out because im like a bum and im not like all the tight asses in grosse pointe and blah blah blah"
and i say "well first of all your a bum because you want to be and you stick out becauase you feel like it, and you dont know what your even talking about, you make no sense"
and he SAYS... NOW GET READY FOR A TRUE ASSHOLE DUMBASS WHATEVER...
"well Im sorry that you arn't mesmerized by me."
WHAT THE FUCK. im sorry. who the fuck says that.
so i say "im sorry im not mezmerized that you try to be different and a bum. that does not mesmerize me."
and then he gets all bitchy and tries to turn the whole thing around on me, make me feel like shit because i 'dont understand him' and all this. and 'i used to say this and i used to say that...' well I WAS FOURTEEN THEN. That was like three years ago.
WHY THE HECK AM I STILL TAKLING TO HIM??
do you ever get that? wehre you have no idea why someone keeps popping up in your life and pissing you off? it makes no sense.
theres quite a lot mroe to the story..but this was bad enough.
im so sick of this.
its just like im freaking out. cause its like should i have just gone out with him? but i just cant. i feel like if i see him one more time something will happen. like im secretly missing him, in a way, but i dont want to. i just want to hate him so bad cause he always makes me feel like im wrong and bitchy..which is not hte case at all. im a nice person, i just upset when people try to make me feel like the wrong one in situations when all im doing is expressing my opinion.
so much fucking history. fuckers. now... he is a FUCKER. the ultimate.
i just cant stand him. i just want him to disapear. its been like almost 4 years now. sad. really sad. were not even friends. were nothing. yet we still talk like ive known him my whole life.
but all we do is fight. and i hate fighting. i just started freaking out. screaming at my mom and siter. cleaning my room frantically, cause thats what i do when i get stressed, and i just started takling to myself. its really bad.
how do i let this happen??
then i called chris.. and he of course was already out, probably with that girl and siad he would call back, but i highly doubt he will, so ill just call him. whatever. girls have to suffer so much. so much. so much. i hate it.
but then ONE good part is nick called to see if im going to the WARPED TOUR tomorrow. and i still dont know. i wish i had peopel to go with. NO ONE IS HOME! ahh.
sorry if this post annoyed anyone. cause it must sound kind of stupid/whiney/emotional. but whatever. your a FUCKER if it did bother you, cuase im truly expressing how i feel.
i hate saying sorry. yet i always do. its like i get sucked into doing it.