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just got home.
i feel super sick.
recital makes me want to puke sometimes.
i dont know why i offer people rides.
i have been driving too much.
i feel nautious. and i dont know how to spell that.
maybe slightly delerious.
i want to hang out with my friends.
and then im leaving for arizona/california wednesday.
i have a total of two days of summer in the LOVELY GP before I go there for like 2 weeks.
im not complaining.
but i do wish i could see some people i like.
actually i feel super depressed right now.
and i miss my dad.
i never see him. and when i do he really thinks im stupid or something.
blah. whyy. i dont know.
joel is sick. i feel bad. but he does too much. i brought him a kanoli today though. sarah fell in love with his younger brother logan.
i am italian and that is sweet.
and so are they.
i love eisley. im glad their songs are stuck in my head.
and you should love htem too.
blahh. i need to sleep. i have one more recital left. grad parties all sunday. monday and part of tuesday is free. but you know of course ill prob end up helping my mom. which is ok cause i love her.
im really glad school is out but i feel frusterated staying up late and not doing fun things right now.
like it would be nice if there were a boy to go hang out with. but where the hell would we hang out? god knows there is no where here. maybe im not thinking hard enough. or maybe ive just given up cause im sick of wanting. period.
i guess sometimes we all just get lonely. then i go listen to music.
i think another reason i feel so sick is cause i have practiced any of my instruments in a really long time. that kind of sucks. im bringing my violin to az and i dont think i can bring my guitar. its ok cause i suck at it anyways.
i have to do AP stuff. sick. oh well. its my choice so i guess ill have a good attitude.
i want to go to shows with people. / a nice guy.
im sick of couples. maybe cause im not one. and i know they prob arnt all they are made out to be, but SOMETIMES it just get a little annoying.
i dont know why i feel stressed right now. nothing is wrong. but i feel very tense. and i dont like massages. no.
and why is it so hot all of a sudden again. its summer. yay. blah but im sweating. that is sick. and i still have all of my stage makeup on. that is worse.
ok positivitey. (and I can't spell)
im going to read and design some clothes. like sweet clothes.
oh there is this new band called mon fere or something. from seatle with a girl singer. they are trying to be like pretty girls make graves. but they are still good. and catchy. and guess what?! i like catchy music. who knew that was bad. cause obviously to some if its not totally progressive, post rock, experimental, non indie, non mainstream, non my music taste is better than yours and no one but specific people should know about it.... is much more important than just enjoying good music.
i need to go to bed. but before i do...
i am beginning someting called a pixie revolution. it is not a new religion or anything. just a new way of life. there will be a book written while im in arizoana and california. and you will love it. because it will be my idea of the world i attempt to live in, in writing.
cause we all know i dont live in 'reality' whatever the heck that is.
i like to make beleive. a lot so i dont feel at all. and then jam pakc my schedule so i cant think straight aboutu the 'important' things.
that is my life. goodnight.
i feel super sick.
recital makes me want to puke sometimes.
i dont know why i offer people rides.
i have been driving too much.
i feel nautious. and i dont know how to spell that.
maybe slightly delerious.
i want to hang out with my friends.
and then im leaving for arizona/california wednesday.
i have a total of two days of summer in the LOVELY GP before I go there for like 2 weeks.
im not complaining.
but i do wish i could see some people i like.
actually i feel super depressed right now.
and i miss my dad.
i never see him. and when i do he really thinks im stupid or something.
blah. whyy. i dont know.
joel is sick. i feel bad. but he does too much. i brought him a kanoli today though. sarah fell in love with his younger brother logan.
i am italian and that is sweet.
and so are they.
i love eisley. im glad their songs are stuck in my head.
and you should love htem too.
blahh. i need to sleep. i have one more recital left. grad parties all sunday. monday and part of tuesday is free. but you know of course ill prob end up helping my mom. which is ok cause i love her.
im really glad school is out but i feel frusterated staying up late and not doing fun things right now.
like it would be nice if there were a boy to go hang out with. but where the hell would we hang out? god knows there is no where here. maybe im not thinking hard enough. or maybe ive just given up cause im sick of wanting. period.
i guess sometimes we all just get lonely. then i go listen to music.
i think another reason i feel so sick is cause i have practiced any of my instruments in a really long time. that kind of sucks. im bringing my violin to az and i dont think i can bring my guitar. its ok cause i suck at it anyways.
i have to do AP stuff. sick. oh well. its my choice so i guess ill have a good attitude.
i want to go to shows with people. / a nice guy.
im sick of couples. maybe cause im not one. and i know they prob arnt all they are made out to be, but SOMETIMES it just get a little annoying.
i dont know why i feel stressed right now. nothing is wrong. but i feel very tense. and i dont like massages. no.
and why is it so hot all of a sudden again. its summer. yay. blah but im sweating. that is sick. and i still have all of my stage makeup on. that is worse.
ok positivitey. (and I can't spell)
im going to read and design some clothes. like sweet clothes.
oh there is this new band called mon fere or something. from seatle with a girl singer. they are trying to be like pretty girls make graves. but they are still good. and catchy. and guess what?! i like catchy music. who knew that was bad. cause obviously to some if its not totally progressive, post rock, experimental, non indie, non mainstream, non my music taste is better than yours and no one but specific people should know about it.... is much more important than just enjoying good music.
i need to go to bed. but before i do...
i am beginning someting called a pixie revolution. it is not a new religion or anything. just a new way of life. there will be a book written while im in arizoana and california. and you will love it. because it will be my idea of the world i attempt to live in, in writing.
cause we all know i dont live in 'reality' whatever the heck that is.
i like to make beleive. a lot so i dont feel at all. and then jam pakc my schedule so i cant think straight aboutu the 'important' things.
that is my life. goodnight.