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It's interesting. The more I look at pictures online, read various wall postings, etc., the less of an attachment I start to feel towards Newark. It's been a weird transitioning process, especially since I was so averse to moving out here, and I was constantly absorbed with the thought of how much better Delaware was than here - the location, the people, everything.
Now, that's not to say that a lot of those superiorities still don't hold, but I can already feel myself starting to identify more with Manhattan than Newark. Even last month while I was back for Homecoming and getting texts from people here, I could feel a strange pull drawing me back here. As much as I wanted to resist it, this place is becoming more home than Newark now.
Now that being said, I think the detachment pertains more to being a UD student and being involved in those day-to-day activities. I still see people I know doing the same old shit, and I start to get some of those same feelings I had towards high school people still in Georgia when I jumped town and moved up north. Except this time, I've now jumped town and moved out west, while so many people I know are still in Delaware.
I would like to point out, though, that I think it's a completely different thing to still be in the Newark area but not be involved with those day-to-day UD student type activities (Sarah and Annie, this includes you; I don't lump you into the category described above).
So what does all this mean?
I guess this is growing up?
I still feel an attachment to Delaware because of the memories of my years there and especially the special people I left behind, but I guess I'm now finally starting to accept that that's not my home anymore. I'd say that's progress. Not that I'm happy to call Kansas home, per se, but I am happy that I can be happy here, if that makes sense.
Now, that's not to say that a lot of those superiorities still don't hold, but I can already feel myself starting to identify more with Manhattan than Newark. Even last month while I was back for Homecoming and getting texts from people here, I could feel a strange pull drawing me back here. As much as I wanted to resist it, this place is becoming more home than Newark now.
Now that being said, I think the detachment pertains more to being a UD student and being involved in those day-to-day activities. I still see people I know doing the same old shit, and I start to get some of those same feelings I had towards high school people still in Georgia when I jumped town and moved up north. Except this time, I've now jumped town and moved out west, while so many people I know are still in Delaware.
I would like to point out, though, that I think it's a completely different thing to still be in the Newark area but not be involved with those day-to-day UD student type activities (Sarah and Annie, this includes you; I don't lump you into the category described above).
So what does all this mean?
I guess this is growing up?
I still feel an attachment to Delaware because of the memories of my years there and especially the special people I left behind, but I guess I'm now finally starting to accept that that's not my home anymore. I'd say that's progress. Not that I'm happy to call Kansas home, per se, but I am happy that I can be happy here, if that makes sense.