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The past few days have been pretty fun.. Shannon and Katey have been over a lot... in fact two nights ago they were over.. along with Laura.. and we all played cards. Tonight shannon is over again. We played cards again. Haha.. We're really getting hooked... uh oh!! Watch out! I worked tonight with Jerry and Laura. It was fun. I really really like Laura.. and I'm amazed by all the feelings I have for her. I'm falling for her fast.. and I'm happier then I have ever been with anyone.. honestly. She's so amazing I can't even begin to describe it. There's bad news though. Tonight she told me that she's moving all the way to arizona on August 31st. I cried. I can't loose her. She doesn't wanna leave... but she's being forced by her parents. I finally find something real... something soo soo soo extremely great.. and it's being ripped right out of my hands. I can't begin to describe everything I'm feeling. I feel angry, hurt, confused, scared.... but then I feel so lucky just to be able to spend the time I do with her. I really truly care about her. I think she's perfect, and I think we're perfect together. Today she told me that she thinks we're meant to be together.. and I do not disagree one bit. Before I met her.. I had no intentions on being with a girl.. sure I joked about it.. but there was something about her. We were meant to be together.. otherwise I would never have these feelings. I told her that I thought I was falling in love with her.. hopeing I wouldn't scare her away.. and she told me she felt the same exact way. I'm so happy that we feel the same about everything. When we're together.. the rest of the world fades away.. and I still want everybody to see us together.. to see her holding me.. Me holding her.. I want everyone to know.. the this beautiful, amazing girl is with me... and that I'm the happiest I have ever been in my life. Wow.. here I am.. pouring out my soul to this stupid journal.. how pathetic. Ha. I know.. that no matter what happens.. I'll never find anyone like her..! I feel complete with her... and... she'll look at me.. when I'm bummed out.. in pajamas... and no make up on.. my hair is everywhere.. and tell me that I am so beautiful. And now that I'm with her.. I feel so beautiful... for myself.. and also because I have her... we're beautiful together.
I'm off to bed now.. I need to quit thinking.. or at least it's worth a try.. right?
I'm off to bed now.. I need to quit thinking.. or at least it's worth a try.. right?