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Well.. here I am.. back again. Life's been pretty good lately. No complaints. I've changed my life around completely... and I feel so good now. I can actually look in the mirror and tell myself i'm beautiful. It took a lot to accept who I am, and what I look like.. but things are getting better everyday. My love life was pretty hectic for a while.. I was actually kinda engaged. Ha. Well there was this guy Nate from the army. We were together for about 9 months... and everything was great... It's one of those fairy tale stories of how we met. We met through the internet, and started talkin on the phone after a while.. just as friends. Then he started calling everyday. He was stationed in North Carolina. He ended up coming home just to see me... and things went great. We were together for six months before we even saw each other face to face other then pictures. And when he came home nothing happened.. no sex.. nothing. He didn't try anything.. he was the perfect gentlemen. Well, he went back to north carolina, and we kept on talking... and he ended up telling me he was in love with me. I was the first girl that he's ever told that too, says him, his parents, and his friends. Well, when he came home the first time i met his friends.. and became really close to one of them. Well then Nate called me about a month ago crying.. telling me I was the person he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, that he loved me more than anything, and he just realized that. And he asked me to share my life with him and wanted me to fly to NC from August to December. and I was considering it. Well, turns out... that he told his best friend that me and him were through and that he had been cheating on me with someone's wife. So i called him... and all he did was stutter. And he said that he realized he loved me so much when he slept with that girl... But surprisingly I am fine and dandy after all that. It didn't affect me at all... and that's so strange considering that i was actually thinking about moving to NC with him and marrying him... Hmm strange. Well, recently I met this girl, Laura, and she's awesome. I met her through my best friend Jerry... and I had always thought she was cute from the first day i met her... but never really thought much about it. Then she ended up getting my number somehow and she text and she ended up breaking up with her girlfriend. I really like her.. and really want to be with her.. and she wants to be with me too.. but she may be moving to Arizona for school soon... :-(. We're kinda just going with the flow now... just kinda casually dating. I never thought I'd like her this much... and I never actually considered being in a relationship with a girl until i met her. She's very beautiful... and she makes me smile. Everything about her is amazing. We'll see what happenes with her and i... until then I can just wish...

Shannin and I made up.. which i'm very happy about. I knew she just needed time to realize what was going on... now it's up to her if we can keep out friendship... she's got some pretty hard decisions to make... but she knows I'm here to help as long as she makes the right ones.

Well I'm gone for now... i'll update again soon...