sometimes i just don't understand...
hokay! so today kinda sucked! i got like 6 hrs of sleep last night. then went to 2 lectures, fell asleep for ALL of the first one (it was 1 hr & 15 mins long) & then BAAAAAAAAARELY made it through the 2nd... that was the LOOOOOOOOONGEST 50 mins of my LIFE!!! good GOD! then emily, kat & i went to diamond dave's for lunch... never again! then we came home, i took roughly an hr nap... no, i take that back, i MEANT to sleep for an hr, but it ended up being like a 1/2 hr. then took a shower & got ready for my "date". see, i put that in quotes b/c it really WASN'T a date... that REALLY made me sad. see, dates don't last only an hr & 1/2. so we went to HuHot for dinner & then i got dropped back off at home. we both went to do our hw (i had an online quiz that closes sat & since i'm leavin tom morn, i thought i should do that really quickly). well, poor him, it took him 2+ hrs to do his hw. so needless to say, neither one of us went out to the bars like we planned. altho, he DID take a raincheck w/goin out to the bars. even tho i'm gonna be busy as HELL next week w/midterms & the such. so we're prolly not gonna go out next week. and i have NO idea what i'm doing for spring break (i HOPE i'm going to the men's NCAA 1st/2nd round tourney at the end of the week... but idk yet). mind you i really like him.. oh man! he's just SOOOOOOOOO cute & while we were trying to find a parking spot, these girls got out of their car & he was like "can i hit them?!?" lol oh man... that makes me smile THAT much more, ya know?! cuz that means that he doesn't like the typical slut like 1/2 the pervs on this campus. & so to bring me to my title... i just don't understand WHAT is so wrong w/me that i can't get ANYone... ok, no. i take that back. the ONLY kind of guys i can get are the REALLY geeky, nerdy, computer genius' (& sometimes all that & 26 yrs old). why can't i get anyone that I (emphasis on I) like?! well, lets name a few guys... brian (yea, i'm just gonna work up from h.s.), matt, chris, jon, john, robert (member him?! i barely do), & now brad (there may be a few guys in between those that i'm just not remembering... but w/e... they didn't happen either). i just canNOT fathom (ooo big words!) what is wrong w/me?! i don't understand what i'm doing wrong &/or what i need to change.. or ANYTHING!! it's REALLY starting to get me down! seeing all my friends gettin hit on & whatnot, but not me. i'm sick of it! i really can't take it anymore! ok, i'm done speaking... i can't think of anything & i need to go to bed so i can wake up in 3 hrs to leave for indianapolis. yea, i'm not really excited. anywho, nighters