*dont take for granted...*
Some people dont realize the importance or purpose of someone special in their lives. Some people take for granted all the people that care about them, treating them like shit or completely ignoring them. Others take in the person but always fight with them and complain about them or dont care enough to make sure that person is happy. I've had my share of treating people horrible, no one worth really turning around and looking for but the people i've got a hold of now i realize are the people that are going to push me thru the future. One person especially. This person came out of no where around my appearance to a big new school with just a few people that i actually knew. I didn't know him, he didnt know me. Talking for a while and finally seeing eachother we were clearly different and from completely different crowds. That was my freshman year..by the time sophmore year (for me) rolled around we were just friends talked all of the time, hours at a time, all hours of the night. We became as close as two friends who didnt even speak in person could get. I trusted him with my life story and i was pretty sure he trusted me. So after my sophmore year, his junior, to clear that up..we talked some more during the summer and as it wrapped up we decided a date might not be a bad idea, actually several of them might not be a bad idea...then on September 6th 2004..we started dating..he was my boyfriend
NOW...9 1/2 months down since that day we are still together..Struggling, well sometimes but i love him and i know he loves me. Our trust, may be in different places but we get through everything and always end up with eachother..Tonite was specifically eye opening..because he says i show him reality well then i guess i show us both reality:
"The minute i let you go is the minute of my last breath..your the one who will always keep me going..and waking up everyday..When im down i think of seein u at ur house the first day..n how happy u were..How at ease you made me..How i was scared to hold your hand..I love you, that will never change..I cherish everything..Your the only positive thing i can think of..I love you more amanda.... Dont give up or let go.." ---JUSTIN
Yeah..thats my happy ending. I'm supposed to be with this kid. I love him to death and he's done nothing but good things for me, watching out for me and saving me when i'm in trouble. We've got that connection and so much in common. So take a look around you at all of your friends. Are they all worth holding onto? Fighting with everyday? Do you really KNOW them? Are there better people you could be hangin w/? Is anyone really worth your time? I dunno...i guess i just appreciate everything now. Anyone who wants to be my friend my door is open..i'm a SENIOR off to college in a lil over a year is a BIG thing having friends to talk to will always be something everyone needs so..dont be mean to that person that smiles to you in the hallway or tries to sit next to you at lunch. Everyone needs someone to listen to them...and if they pick you..feel special cause something about you and the way you looked made them come to you...congratulations
NOW...9 1/2 months down since that day we are still together..Struggling, well sometimes but i love him and i know he loves me. Our trust, may be in different places but we get through everything and always end up with eachother..Tonite was specifically eye opening..because he says i show him reality well then i guess i show us both reality:
"The minute i let you go is the minute of my last breath..your the one who will always keep me going..and waking up everyday..When im down i think of seein u at ur house the first day..n how happy u were..How at ease you made me..How i was scared to hold your hand..I love you, that will never change..I cherish everything..Your the only positive thing i can think of..I love you more amanda.... Dont give up or let go.." ---JUSTIN
Yeah..thats my happy ending. I'm supposed to be with this kid. I love him to death and he's done nothing but good things for me, watching out for me and saving me when i'm in trouble. We've got that connection and so much in common. So take a look around you at all of your friends. Are they all worth holding onto? Fighting with everyday? Do you really KNOW them? Are there better people you could be hangin w/? Is anyone really worth your time? I dunno...i guess i just appreciate everything now. Anyone who wants to be my friend my door is open..i'm a SENIOR off to college in a lil over a year is a BIG thing having friends to talk to will always be something everyone needs so..dont be mean to that person that smiles to you in the hallway or tries to sit next to you at lunch. Everyone needs someone to listen to them...and if they pick you..feel special cause something about you and the way you looked made them come to you...congratulations