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I'm at work right now. I've gotta go pick people up from the garage in about 10 mins. We'll see what I can write.
Today was my last schedueled day with Lotta. I didn't think I'd be upset about it, but now I've realized there was this person in my life that I saw atleast once a week and now I don't have her anymore. Granted she didn't say much, or really make much noise at all, but she always smiled when she saw me. It was always something that I looked forward to each week. Seeing her little face and her big smiles when she'd see me. I'm going to miss our snuggle sessions when she'd wake up from a nap. I really get attached to people. She's known me for the majority of her life and I feel so bad that I can't see her anymore. I'm going to see if Julie will let me visit sometimes, because she's really a great baby and I'd be sad not being able to see her.
I wonder if I'm going to Matt's tonight. He hasn't called me since he left for work but he also told me he was either leaving at 9 or maybe he'd wait for me if he wasn't too tired. I'm so girly, I haven't seen him in less than 2 days. Well actually he brought me to Lotta's this morning so I wouldn't have to walk in the snow. But anyhow I just find myself missing him when I'm not with him all day. I don't know why I'm so girly, I feel stupid for feeling this way but I wish I could spend each day seeing him. I realize last spring I was getting sick of spending all my time with him, but I think I would be fine if I spent everyday with him, but had a job or something so that I wasn't with him every second of the day. It would probably also help if I wasn't always with his brother. I can't stand how much time we spend with him. Matt's irratated with it as well so atleast it's not only me.
Steve honestly treats matt like he's his wife or something. He plans outtings for the both of them, and he naggs him about bills and money issues. I just wish we could spend time with out him but matt never wants to stay with me and I understand that if there are people at my apt he feels too old. But I've invited him over other times and I invite him home too and he doessn't ever want to come. It makes me feel like I have to adapt to his friends but he doesn't want to do the same for me. I don't know, I'm just a little upset about that because he's not going home for christmas and I asked him to come to our christmas and he said no.
Picking people up!
Today was my last schedueled day with Lotta. I didn't think I'd be upset about it, but now I've realized there was this person in my life that I saw atleast once a week and now I don't have her anymore. Granted she didn't say much, or really make much noise at all, but she always smiled when she saw me. It was always something that I looked forward to each week. Seeing her little face and her big smiles when she'd see me. I'm going to miss our snuggle sessions when she'd wake up from a nap. I really get attached to people. She's known me for the majority of her life and I feel so bad that I can't see her anymore. I'm going to see if Julie will let me visit sometimes, because she's really a great baby and I'd be sad not being able to see her.
I wonder if I'm going to Matt's tonight. He hasn't called me since he left for work but he also told me he was either leaving at 9 or maybe he'd wait for me if he wasn't too tired. I'm so girly, I haven't seen him in less than 2 days. Well actually he brought me to Lotta's this morning so I wouldn't have to walk in the snow. But anyhow I just find myself missing him when I'm not with him all day. I don't know why I'm so girly, I feel stupid for feeling this way but I wish I could spend each day seeing him. I realize last spring I was getting sick of spending all my time with him, but I think I would be fine if I spent everyday with him, but had a job or something so that I wasn't with him every second of the day. It would probably also help if I wasn't always with his brother. I can't stand how much time we spend with him. Matt's irratated with it as well so atleast it's not only me.
Steve honestly treats matt like he's his wife or something. He plans outtings for the both of them, and he naggs him about bills and money issues. I just wish we could spend time with out him but matt never wants to stay with me and I understand that if there are people at my apt he feels too old. But I've invited him over other times and I invite him home too and he doessn't ever want to come. It makes me feel like I have to adapt to his friends but he doesn't want to do the same for me. I don't know, I'm just a little upset about that because he's not going home for christmas and I asked him to come to our christmas and he said no.
Picking people up!