Thomas Bonelli---you will be remembered...I love you so much.
Well, there`s a boy named Tom Bonelli...he was new this year...we went out for three weeks...he was nice. The teachers have been out to get him since the beginning of the year...he`s been in the principal`s office EVERY single day. Today, he gave this kid, Jared a shove, and he got sent down to the principal`s office...and uhm...he got...EXPELLED. =( I can`t even breathe right now...you see, even though we broke up, he still wanted to be with me...but I said no, because I was waiting for Ethan...but now, I realize that I DO like him...and...I just hope it`s not too late...I cried all day today, because it`s never going to be the same...in the morning, I always went to see him...just to say hi. And everyday for math, I see him, because he gets his books to go to science...and that`s not going to happen anymore. =( And I don`t know how I`m going able to adapt to the fact that I won`t see him everyday anymore...I feel so empty inside right now...I haven`t felt this way in a longass time. He`s going to Orchard Park now. He`s grounded from the phone and computer, but I called him tonight, and we were talking for a little bit...I was so sad, though...today, in lunch, this girl, Jamie Godwin, she`s in his homeroom, she was like..."Tom`s in the office...he`s crying, and he has to leave our school." And no one believed her, so my bestfriend, Jennie and I went upstairs to investigate. There was no nurse today, so Jennie went to the office, and asked for a band-aid. The only person in the office with Tom was this old lady, Ms. Kane...she`s very nice. She went down with Jennie to get a band-aid...and I was talking to Tom, and I told him he couldn`t leave me...when I saw Ms. Kane and Jennie walking back, I said, "so...do you want a hug goodbye?" And he said, "yes." So I hugged him, and I kissed him on the cheek, and then we walked out...it was still lunch, so as Jennie and I were walking down to lunch, we started crying...the truth is, I do have feelings for him...he DOES mean a lot to me. But I guess I was so stuck on Ethan, I refused to tell myself I still had feelings for Tom. He really IS a good kid...there`s a dance tomorrow, and he can`t go now, because he`s in trouble...but he said he`ll probably be going to the next one. Maybe if my school wasn`t a private catholic school, he wouldn`t have been expelled. This is going to be awfully weird not seeing him everyday...I`m not going to like this feeling...it`s going to suck major cock. I`m still in utter shock and disbelief that he`s GONE. This is so hard...ugh...I don`t like this, Goddamnit!! I WANT HIM TO STAY AT OUR SCHOOL!!! I NEED HIM!!! =( I figured I`d put some pictures of him in here...
^^He`s the one in the grey sweater.
^^He`s the one holding that kid.
^^Haha awe...he looks like he`s wearing a mouth guard for hockey in that picture.
I`m going to miss him so fucking much...ugh...I wish it didn`t have to be like this...=(
^^He`s the one in the grey sweater.
^^He`s the one holding that kid.
^^Haha awe...he looks like he`s wearing a mouth guard for hockey in that picture.
I`m going to miss him so fucking much...ugh...I wish it didn`t have to be like this...=(