One step back to the other side...
Last night was by far, to me, the most hardest and scariest night in these four months, but ended like one of the best. It is soo unfortunate to have that ONE feeling, the most horrible feeling imaginable. The thought of losing someone you love dear and looked up to the most, and to have THAT feeling brought back to you about another person! Well I almost died because of that feeling. To have something taken away from you within a blink of and eye, someone you have known for such a short period of time but feels like an eternity. Sixteen years is not a long time, so imagine it was for just four months.
Honestly, I could not see myself without her, and to feel that it was almost over hurts me even more that thoughts could imagine. I regret not being with her the days I cannot be with her, but alas, school and work have gotten in the way of eternal togetherness with my girlfriend! Weekends are not enough, since I work every other one, but we have gotten through soo fucking much in these past four and a half months.
Our lives are just an album that we write and create through our everyday routine. Whatever happens, good or bad, between us just goes written on our lyric page. God is our Distributor and you are my favorite song. I love you soo much, Kim, and would never think to lose you for just one minute. And after all we have said and done last night, it's funny how we make that one phone call to reasure ourselves how much we love each other. Love is such a strong feeling, especially for a couple of young kids like us, and yes, twenty is still young. It takes a long time to find that love, and an even longer time to get over the loss. But, with you, I feel like I found it the first time I met you, at that punk rock show!
It's getting early into the morning, and I should go do something since I'm off today. Something creative and positive, worth living for. On a brighter note, everyone should check out www.theoffalsyndicate.com, just a new little layout I threw together. Thank you for everything, Kim. I'm soo spent, because I cannot see through these tears.
We'll talk later!
I love and miss you soo much.
I miss my brother.
Peace out and keep it scene!
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