Confidence is sexy but honesty is better
Okay, this is a bit over due but...I need to write this down just so there is no mistaking how I a feel.
Like many of my musician friends who need to concentrate on the big three (music, work, and school), I have taken the path celebacy (not permenently but for all intensive purposes right now). It wouldn't be fair to have a relationship with a girl because with out time to develop a relationship beyond attraction and friendship, it may not work. It could work but I don't think it would be very satisfying (unless we worked it out before we started dating). I had weighed my options between asking out different girls but for various reasons the chemistry was not quite right and I'd rather have solid, casual and uncompromising friendships with many people than date a girl for a while and then end it and have an awkward, uncomfortable relationship later (or not one interaction after breaking up, just memories of it- haunting me).
If something came up and a girl liked me in a manner similiar to as as I liked her, it would be worth pursuing maybe... It just doesn't seem like girls like me too much. I mean like they like me enough to hang out occassionally, but whenever I bring up that I like them, it just makes them feel nervois (is that why Dana has been nice to them the whole time? What are his true intentions?).
Maybe, its how I present that I have feelings. Like writing down all this bull shit, I show how I feel , wait for them to show some sort of reciprecity, then gain enough courage, then when they call for my cards, I just lay it out condescandingly, including how I arrived at the conclusion via process of elimination rather than there is only one choice. She wouldn't know how to handle that, say I'm sweet and never call me again, not want to even be my friend (I have know only of one girl who genuinely wants to be my friend even though, she said she doesn't like as more).
Which leads to part II, sometimes they say that they just want to be friends or they have a boyfriend, then whenever they are feeling restless or want to attention, they ask me out (often canceling last minute). (just for clarity sake, it is different when the relationship type is already defined, then I am aware of it) Sometimes, it goes well, then I wonder if she has feelings for me, then I learn otherwise. This makes me feel exploited.
It may seem like I am writing without need or arrogance, this is not the case. I'm just saying this is what a relationship would have to be for it to work with me and how I arrive at this conclusion.
Like many of my musician friends who need to concentrate on the big three (music, work, and school), I have taken the path celebacy (not permenently but for all intensive purposes right now). It wouldn't be fair to have a relationship with a girl because with out time to develop a relationship beyond attraction and friendship, it may not work. It could work but I don't think it would be very satisfying (unless we worked it out before we started dating). I had weighed my options between asking out different girls but for various reasons the chemistry was not quite right and I'd rather have solid, casual and uncompromising friendships with many people than date a girl for a while and then end it and have an awkward, uncomfortable relationship later (or not one interaction after breaking up, just memories of it- haunting me).
If something came up and a girl liked me in a manner similiar to as as I liked her, it would be worth pursuing maybe... It just doesn't seem like girls like me too much. I mean like they like me enough to hang out occassionally, but whenever I bring up that I like them, it just makes them feel nervois (is that why Dana has been nice to them the whole time? What are his true intentions?).
Maybe, its how I present that I have feelings. Like writing down all this bull shit, I show how I feel , wait for them to show some sort of reciprecity, then gain enough courage, then when they call for my cards, I just lay it out condescandingly, including how I arrived at the conclusion via process of elimination rather than there is only one choice. She wouldn't know how to handle that, say I'm sweet and never call me again, not want to even be my friend (I have know only of one girl who genuinely wants to be my friend even though, she said she doesn't like as more).
Which leads to part II, sometimes they say that they just want to be friends or they have a boyfriend, then whenever they are feeling restless or want to attention, they ask me out (often canceling last minute). (just for clarity sake, it is different when the relationship type is already defined, then I am aware of it) Sometimes, it goes well, then I wonder if she has feelings for me, then I learn otherwise. This makes me feel exploited.
It may seem like I am writing without need or arrogance, this is not the case. I'm just saying this is what a relationship would have to be for it to work with me and how I arrive at this conclusion.