RELATIONSHIP/ANYTHING WHATEVER MEME

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Riku is almost at 1k so I might as well, right. BUT WE DOIN' THIS TWO* WAYS:

option 1: Tell me what one of yours thinks of one of mine and I'll reverse.

option 2: Tell me a relationship we don't have but would be ~awesome~ and I will hypothetically reply with hypotheticals.

option 3: Ask me any sort of essay topic and I will answer it/essay

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[headcaduceus]

BAAAWWWWW I ONLY HAVE SIX ICONS LEFT T______T

So... Lancia and Mukuro right? Saaah where to begin. Lancia's feelings for Mukuro are constantly in a jumble: anger, bitterness, love, affection, disgust, desire, etc. Lately, they've been swinging more towards the love side of thing, which... sometimes has this way of making Lancia feel even worse.

He doesn't feel as controlled by Mukuro anymore. It's been long enough since everything went down that he's come to accept it, and started moving on with his life. It's also reached the point where he occasionally forgets what a little shit Mukuro is, and remembers that they were brothers and that he really really loved him, and the good memories make him really happy and really nostalgic. They're usually followed by a lot of regret and sadness and self recriminations: why didn't I notice what was happening, why wasn't I able to stop him, what did I do wrong? And, don't get me wrong, he does occasionally get angry about the stuff that Mukuro did to him and used him to accomplish, but over all, it's starting to just make him incredibly sad and weary when he thinks about things.

He's starting to forgive Mukuro, and that's something that's leaving him with very mixed feelings. To love is to forgive, and at the root of their relationship, Lancia truly does love Mukuro. He is someone who's insanely important to him, and has been for a very long time. He's a tie to a past that Lancia can never return to. He's someone who's constantly there and Lancia expects him to be there when he looks. It's not a fearful thing like it once was. It's reassurance -- oh good, he's still here -- and then he goes back to living life.

Then there's the physical aspect of their relationship. It embarrasses Lancia, but he does find Mukuro attractive. He has never denied that he wasn't a good looking man, but it makes him a little uncomfortable that he's started acting on it occasionally. He does wonder, he is curious, and he knows that Mukuro is not the kind of person he should consider that with, even if he didn't also consider him family.

Kissing Mukuro recently was a bad idea and he knew it and he still wanted to do it. He wanted Mukuro to make the first move, to approach him, which is part of what is embarrassing him so much. Because since Mukuro initiated it, he can shunt some of the blame for the guilt he feels away fro himself. And then Mukuro called him on it, and then suddenly all the guilt and shame were his own again. It doesn't change the fact that he did enjoy kissing Mukuro, and he doesn't even hold getting stabbed against him this time. He considers it a fitting punishment.

Right now, he's pretty much just trying to sort through his feelings for Mukuro. Trying to weigh his emotional attraction and the physical attraction and trying to make sure he doesn't do something that stupid again... unless he really intends to do it and take the consequences.

... now you. :|

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Lancia is one of the most important adult figures in Mukuro's life! And, really, the only positive figure. Mukuro's also one fucked up bastard. I mean, really only relatively recently has he started channeling positive emotions in less destructive ways. And he's still really destructive. He's a destructive personality!

I mean, you live your life for like 10ish years plotting to KILL EVERYTHING and then the world gets turned over and now you're spending your energy towards other things!? Mukuro's world is so topsyturvy. He dislikes it, in a way. He likes it, in a way.

But the way Mukuro approaches life has changed, and with it, all of his relations. And with that! His relationship with Lancia. Mukuro has always viewed Lancia as "his" thing. Because he can take what he wants from Lancia, because Lancia gave/gives. Because he knows Lancia loves him and that's something he has to twist. He's not really . . . emotionally stable/mature enough to be able to just take whatever Lancia gives him without being a bastard about it.

BASICALLY LIKE. Ownership/absolute domination -> let me love you tenderly fucked uppedly. It's a way for Mukuro to reassert himself in his whacked out world. Getting Lancia to admit to things is just the cherry on the top, so to speak. HA, I still own you! Being nice sits better with Mukuro when he can also be really nasty.

IDK THERE WAS MORE BUT I AM FADING FAST.