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so far work has been ok.. not as bad as i thought it would be. i basically go around and clean the old peoples room.. i dust off the tables, dressers, basically any surface in the room.. vacuum the rugs in the bedroom.. and basically wipe down the bathrooms and mop the floors.. i don't make the beds cause they made it the nurse's aid's job.. i dont clean up any diapers.. if i see any diapers i am to leave it for the aid.. its pretty simple..
on other news..
its been a year today since matt died.. i was thinking about him this morning and almost burst into uncontrollable tears.... even though we weren't what you would call friends.. i still miss him alot.. he was kinda like an older brother in a sort of way.. he was always around.. one of the few that i actually liked being around. one of the few that i didnt care if he walked into the house with out knocking..
i cant help but think of my own older brother when i think of matt. it makes me worry more for him.. this war never hit close until daniel had to leave for it and when matt died.. when matt died i was truly scared for my older brother. i wanted him home instead of over there.. but on the other side i knew it was their job, their duty.. and we can't stop them.. which makes me greatly appreciate the things that they do for me and for everyone else who take them for granted..
one of these days i will make a trip to arlington to see him. first i have to figure out how to get there..
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my mom wants me to go to church with her and her husband..
i dont want to go.. i personally don't believe in god.. even though i was baptized a catholic and born and raised into a catholic family, i believe my self to be agnostic about the whole thing..
what i dont get.. is that most of my life i never went to church.. i dont know why she is all on the bag wagon for going now.. personally i think she is just doing it cause of her husband.. and doesnt want him to think badly of her cause she doesn't take her kids to church.. or she doesnt go herself..
personally i think that church is a waste of time.. even though i know that people disagree with me.. and i dont hate them for it.. im just not one for church.. you know, i believe that we go some where when we die.. just where that is, i don't know..
on other news..
its been a year today since matt died.. i was thinking about him this morning and almost burst into uncontrollable tears.... even though we weren't what you would call friends.. i still miss him alot.. he was kinda like an older brother in a sort of way.. he was always around.. one of the few that i actually liked being around. one of the few that i didnt care if he walked into the house with out knocking..
i cant help but think of my own older brother when i think of matt. it makes me worry more for him.. this war never hit close until daniel had to leave for it and when matt died.. when matt died i was truly scared for my older brother. i wanted him home instead of over there.. but on the other side i knew it was their job, their duty.. and we can't stop them.. which makes me greatly appreciate the things that they do for me and for everyone else who take them for granted..
one of these days i will make a trip to arlington to see him. first i have to figure out how to get there..
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my mom wants me to go to church with her and her husband..
i dont want to go.. i personally don't believe in god.. even though i was baptized a catholic and born and raised into a catholic family, i believe my self to be agnostic about the whole thing..
what i dont get.. is that most of my life i never went to church.. i dont know why she is all on the bag wagon for going now.. personally i think she is just doing it cause of her husband.. and doesnt want him to think badly of her cause she doesn't take her kids to church.. or she doesnt go herself..
personally i think that church is a waste of time.. even though i know that people disagree with me.. and i dont hate them for it.. im just not one for church.. you know, i believe that we go some where when we die.. just where that is, i don't know..