SJ's weekend events.
wow my life sucks. lool. OK so sat i went to the doc and thats it. I lost my cel phone last week so all forms of contact are gone. I was supposed to get my hair cut but i havent yet so its all in my face and shit. Recieved calls from the following: US Army, US Navy, US AirForce, US Marines, US coast guard. Every single one of them said that I couldnt join because of my medical thing or whatever. I asked them all why cant i fight for my country and then they all gave the same response. "Fighting for your country is a privelage". whatever the fuck that meant.
then i find out my uncle has a tumor behind his eye and he could die if they dont take it out. then my mom goes to walmart today and they found it and its all broken and smashed. fuckers. really my life is basically like living in a jail cell right now. So that comes to lyrics that are basically exactly how my life is right now....
"Im steady tryna find a motive,
Why do what i do?,
Freedom aint gettin no closer,
No matter how far i go,
And i get locked up,
They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up) ,
Cuz visitation no longer comes by,
Seems like they forgot about me,
Commissary is getting empty,
My cell mates getting food without me,
Can't wait to get out and move forward with my life,
Got a family that loves me and wants me to do right
But instead Im here locked up"
Yeh its amazing how u get out of high school and it seems they forget about you. like 15 "friends" i had never heard from them since we graduated. THis past weekthe only IM I have recieved is from michelle and erin thats it. Nobody else because nobody else cares or gives a shit. I <3 michelle and erin for that keepin me lookin towards a future. im tired of drowning in my own sorrow. tired of wantin to be him....tired of using tylenol pm to get some sleep....tired of people starin at me....hmm anyway back to journal. good games come out that i occupy my meanignless life in the future:
ESPN Hockey: 8/31
Fable: 9/15'
NHL Hockey 2005: 8/15.
you know maybhe if someone see's this it would be nice if u just said hi or give me encouragenment when im feeling down like i am.
then i find out my uncle has a tumor behind his eye and he could die if they dont take it out. then my mom goes to walmart today and they found it and its all broken and smashed. fuckers. really my life is basically like living in a jail cell right now. So that comes to lyrics that are basically exactly how my life is right now....
"Im steady tryna find a motive,
Why do what i do?,
Freedom aint gettin no closer,
No matter how far i go,
And i get locked up,
They won't let me out, they won't let me out, (im locked up) ,
Cuz visitation no longer comes by,
Seems like they forgot about me,
Commissary is getting empty,
My cell mates getting food without me,
Can't wait to get out and move forward with my life,
Got a family that loves me and wants me to do right
But instead Im here locked up"
Yeh its amazing how u get out of high school and it seems they forget about you. like 15 "friends" i had never heard from them since we graduated. THis past weekthe only IM I have recieved is from michelle and erin thats it. Nobody else because nobody else cares or gives a shit. I <3 michelle and erin for that keepin me lookin towards a future. im tired of drowning in my own sorrow. tired of wantin to be him....tired of using tylenol pm to get some sleep....tired of people starin at me....hmm anyway back to journal. good games come out that i occupy my meanignless life in the future:
ESPN Hockey: 8/31
Fable: 9/15'
NHL Hockey 2005: 8/15.
you know maybhe if someone see's this it would be nice if u just said hi or give me encouragenment when im feeling down like i am.