A Phone Call
I called to talk. But only managed to tell her I was coming back the middel of next week and that I just wanted to say hi. I've felt like puking since the phone call... I"m a nervous wreck. My mom knows and has been trying t comfort me. She knew I really loved her. She said she thought this was the person I'd spend my life with by our interaction during the week. And how when i talk about er I got a certain glow in my eye. She said she wouuld have never guessed anything could have gone wrong. She's been apologizing all evening for something she has no control over. ITs odd how my mother can go from hating me to wanting to comfort me in whatever way possible. She got home from work early and took me to dinner, then took me out shopping. Only I couldn't find anything I wanted... Se's gonna give me money to shop later on this week in hopes it will make me feel better to spend some moeny. She said she didn't want me going back to TN early if I was just going to sit around Nathan and Jamies and stew over what I could have done wrong. What I could have done to make things work out... All i can say is I really loved her, and some how drove her away. I did the best I could to treat her right. I guess she just wasn't the person for me, but I really wanted her to be. ... I'm off of here now. Bed time I think