me and him
will things work out?
Everything in this world can not be perfect. No matter how hard you try. Things happen that you have no control over. Thats the worst part. Just sitting back and letting things happen. What happens if it really was supposed to work out like this. I was to meet him through her and he is the person i am supposed to be with. God works in crazy ways and we as humans have no idea what His plan is for us. I wish that i would know my plan and who i am supposed to be with, but what would be the fun in that. Just go on each and every day with mystery in your eyes, waiting for great things to happen. You never know when someone can come in your life that was supposed to be there the entire time.
I think i finally found him. I may seem weird to say that. I have only known him a year and we have only been talking for a month and really dating for a week. But this is the real thing. No turing back. No regrets. Its just hard to give it my all knowing someone else is waiting for me to mess up so she can have her chance with him again. I cant handle that. I never want to give up. I love him way to much. I know... how can i say that. Its only been a week. I just fell too hard way to quick. Its nothing that i can expain. The only person that knows how i feel is Tim.
I was talkign to my ex today and he is so happy for me. His life is going well. He used to be my high school sweetheart and now we both have moved on. Its a really good thing to know that i can fall in love again. To bad it took me a year. I just wish that tim will be able to completly move on like i did. Right now its looking like he is. I know that he still likes her in a way. I cant change that but im just glad that he knows he can never be with her again for reasons that do not need to be said. I know how she feels. I was in her position a year ago. The only thing that will help is to stop communication and there is no way that he is going to do that and her wanting him back isnt going to stop her from calling him.
I did not go out seeking a relationship with him. I did not have them break up because of me. I had no part in that. Me and him just sort of happened. The more that we talked to each other, the more and more i fell in love with him. The reason i did not go to his ball with him is because i loved him and i knew that ashley still had feelings for him. It was my way of backing off. But the more i backed off the more that he pushed on. I never wanted to hurt on of my friends. I know how she feels and its the worst feeling. But when it happens to you, if it ever does, you will understand. I know i do. I know how sarah felt when i was still calling jeremy. I know how much a strain i put on their new relationship and i do not think that it is fair for me to do that to them, or her doing that to me and tim. You have to just let things happen. If it is not supposed to be, then it will not be. But a chance has to be given.
I want that chance. I want to be with him. Right now its happening.
My fairy tale is coming true. I just dont want to wicked witch to step in and rain on my parade.
More later...
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