lame. again
this weekend has been lame.. again..
i dont know whats wrong with me right now but i am feeling wierd about specific things.. so i dont know. im hoping this is just a stupid phase and will be over.
also.
angela and i were talking about being single and stuff and i was thinking about being single .. and then i was like.. theres no way i could even do that. but then i was like.. well what if i could be single for a week then go back to normal.. but thats so selfish and not fair. so i guess im just going to have to suck it up and wait for this feeling to go away.. because i guess theres no compromise between single and dating..unles things change after and i dont want that. ah i dunoo.
im so confused. dont get me wrong i love dan. like there is no question in my mind about loving him.. its just .. im 16.. when you're 16 you're supposed to date around and find the different types of people. i feel like in order to be totally secure with myself or relationship or whatever... i like.. need a break? no.. wrong wording.. i dont even know if there is wording for this. and im sorry if you are reading this dan and think that its your fault cause its not. i am just confused and kinda in a hard spot with myself right now. stressed. i dont know. im going to stop this journal because this is finally exactly how i feel..
ps. i havent made my decision as to what i want to do yet... and hopefully i wont have to make one that will hurt either of us.
i dont know whats wrong with me right now but i am feeling wierd about specific things.. so i dont know. im hoping this is just a stupid phase and will be over.
also.
angela and i were talking about being single and stuff and i was thinking about being single .. and then i was like.. theres no way i could even do that. but then i was like.. well what if i could be single for a week then go back to normal.. but thats so selfish and not fair. so i guess im just going to have to suck it up and wait for this feeling to go away.. because i guess theres no compromise between single and dating..unles things change after and i dont want that. ah i dunoo.
im so confused. dont get me wrong i love dan. like there is no question in my mind about loving him.. its just .. im 16.. when you're 16 you're supposed to date around and find the different types of people. i feel like in order to be totally secure with myself or relationship or whatever... i like.. need a break? no.. wrong wording.. i dont even know if there is wording for this. and im sorry if you are reading this dan and think that its your fault cause its not. i am just confused and kinda in a hard spot with myself right now. stressed. i dont know. im going to stop this journal because this is finally exactly how i feel..
ps. i havent made my decision as to what i want to do yet... and hopefully i wont have to make one that will hurt either of us.