I dont know...
I dont even know where to begin. Everything seems to be crashing down around me. Usually bad things are like water on my back, just rolls right off without a second thought. My whole motto in life is, "Get over it." and for some reason I cant seem to do it this time. I havent felt like this for years now, since I got off my anti-depressants... I just need to get out of this hole. Dan doesnt understand how to help me and my mom is out of town, not checking her e-mail. I feel so alone right now, even though Im not. To top it off the right side of my right hand has been numb and tingly all of last night and today... Kinda startin to freak me out a bit. I hope its nothing serious but I need to talk to my mom. I miss her. Dan wants to take me to the doctor but I hate that. It takes up so much time that I dont have to waste. And all their gonna do is give me pills that I have to pay for every month that prolly wont even do anything. oh well, we'll see if he makes me go or not. Thats one of the pluses Dan really has, when Im hurt or sick he takes REAL good care of me. Taking me to the doctor, making dinner, cleaning, everything. Makes up for the rest of the time when he doesnt do much :) I love him!