WHY AM I SO MAD???
why am i so mad?why is this bothering me?whyyyy? i dun understand, one minute im just chillin , n then i make a 5second phone call, n i say "whatever", n even he figured it out that i was mad, whyyyyy? i dun get it, i do it to myself, at times i believe that im so stupid to get mad at things that dont make sense at all, omg i dun wanna be here? whyyy????? maybe its becuz i noe shes there next to you , n that im not, the fact that i cant be bothers me , im guessin well i hate that feelin , or maybe its merely the fact that both, you and i knew you had feelings for her before, WHETHER, it was a lil stupid crush thing , it bothers me that i still think about it till this day, i hate it that i cant get it out of my head, so maybe its becuz i noe how she is n i have physical insecurities so i get scared that she is next to you. maybe cuz i feel insecure about my appearance n it bothers me cuz ive never felt this way , im guessin its cuz i noe i feel so deeply about chu, n i just want to be a perfect gurl for you. well w/e ever it is i try not to talk about it much, cuz maybe ull regret tellin me about the feelings u had, n i dun want that, i want u to talk to me about everythin!but one thing i noe im mad at is that i didnt noe she was goin!well its all goody tho, im used to not noein things around here,friends?dun think so, even jenny says it(not my cuz), that she aint got friends! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....im sorry,l i noe u wont understand this entry n thats ok , all i noe is that it makes sense to me, n if u think im retarded for thinkin any of this, well, u noe how i am, n i guess i have to work on changin how i am at times, i cant help it!.....i dunno why i get mad at times n i dont noe the reason im mad in the first place..the only thing i do noe is that we are the same....ohhh well i guess ill just take a chill pill rite now, n think about i dun even noe! about w/e the fuck pops in ma head!................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........