2004 is dead and gone
another year over with and it is bittersweet in my eyes. I've had more joy and shed more tears in one year than I have in the past 5, maybe more. so much happened. graduation, meeting new friends, concerts, my birthday, buying a new (used) car, starting college, the list goes on and on. everything changed. I changed. but what makes it different from past years is that it was a good change I think. for once things seemed to go my direction and I'm starting a new year feeling happy. I can't remember the last time I've been happy about a new year. maybe I never have been. yeah, I been through some shitty times throughout the year, but you know what, I'm over them for the most part, and the stuff I'm not over, I'm working on making that happen. I've made it this far, I think I can make it a little farther. I'm not making resolutions for the year (except the one), I'm making resolutions to get through day by day. anyone who can make a resolution for the year and keep it, let alone remember it, I applaud you. I just can't plan that far in advance. no one can ever know what is going to happen in the next year, month, week, day, minute, so it seems pointless to resolve something when you don't know what is going to jump in your path and screw things up. I've made one resolution in my life and I've kept it (I became a vegetarian), because I've seen so many people make resolutions and keep them for about a week and I decided I never wanted to be one of those people who fail. I refuse to fail at anything because I have a fear of it. it's lame but, oh well, it's me. enough ranting for now. sorry to bore you.