Where has the time gone?

[soccerjam]

So holy cow I can't believe it. My last day of high school is in 8 days, 8 days can you believe it? To me it's weird how you have been going to school with mostly the same people since you have been in Kindergarten, but for some reason you are so excited to move onto college and meet new people. I know this sounds terrible, but I am excited to get away. There has been so much drama that is not necessary. I think I want to meet new people because the people I have been so close to for so long are completly new people and I am so use to the person that they have been that I cant take it about who they have become. Today I was reading threw all my old notes and some of the stuff I was reading I couldn't believe it. I sat there and thought about how things use to be and what they are like today and wow is it different. I know so many people say oh yeah we will keep in touch when we graduate, but I know damn well thats not going to happen. All the people I use to be really good friends with are moving away to go to college while I stay in lovely D-Town. In a way it disappoints me that I may not asociate with these people any more, but I guess the only thing im suppose to do is be grateful for the time I did share with them. I still have Eric, which is nice because I know he will be around when I really need some one the most. I guess he is all I have right now. I dont know if thats good or bad, but hm who knows. For some of you reading this you probably have no idea whats going on, but I dont really care at this moment, because its my journal and these are the thoughts that are going through my head right now. I feel kind of selfish at the moment, because I know that there are some people out there who cant experience the things I can and i'm not taking the fact that I can for granted. See I think thats a big problem for people these days. No one freakin appreciates anything that anyone does for them. Take your parents. I know most peoples parents treat them like gold and you repay them by acting out and casuing trouble. Come on. They have been nothing but nice to you, you should try repaying them in a different way. I myself know that at times I dont take things for granted and I hate that about myself. In a way I almost feel that I want something terrible to happen to make me realise that the life I have is good. Well I feel kind of sad at the moment, so I am going to go lay down, but I will leave with some dates that are coming up, not that anyone really cares or anything!

May 5,2006 - Grandma comes from CT, gets to meet Eric for the first time =]
May 8,2006 - My father and my brothers birthday's. The big 50 and 21.
May 12, 2006 - Last day of high school.
May 13, 2006 - Big party for my brother and father.
May 18,2006 - Graduation
June 25,2006 - My 18th birthday
End of June or begining of July going on a cruise for my graduation present =]