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well school has officially jus started n i have 2 say that its really not that bad... like the 1st day sucked cuz it was soo hard 2 imagine doin it every single day but as the dayz go by, its gets like easier n easier 2 doo... the only thing that sux is i dont get 2 see my friends as much n stuff but i mean i see them afta school n on weekends sooo its all good!.. my classes r pretty cool 2... might be kinda hard though but i gotta get used 2 that 4 college newayz... i miss some1 a lot cuz i havent like seen em in 4ever!.. or @ least it seems like 4ever when actually its only been like 2 dayz.. but still thats like soo long!!... right now im in a weird mood cuz im about 2 go see red eye FINALLY!!... but like something is wrong w/ me.. i dk what... actually i kinda doo... im scared/nervous bout this yr bein over..... i mean i want 2 go 2 college n stuff but im soo nervous bout it.. like i cant stop thinkin that @ this time next yr, im gonna have NO friends... cuz every1 will be goin their separate wayz n i mean thats life but it still makes me sad!... i seriously dont know what im gonna do.. bein away from my friends n family... i dont think i can do it.. maybe a yr will change me but i dk.. i dont wanna be 18.. i dont wanna live on my own.. i dont wanna go 2 college... i dont wanna leave my friends... alll these things keep runnin through my head CONSTANTLY n i cant stand it nemore!!.. i dk what im gonna do... i should be livin this yr 2 the fullest since its our senior yr but thinkin bout these things jus tear me down... maybe other people r goin through the same thing.. i dk... im so confused right now w/ where my life is gonna go its not even funny... every decision i make it seems will dictate how i live the rest of my life... i hate thinkin bout those things... makes me soo nervous/sad/mad/frustrated... ugh i need 2 stop this... it'll be ok... right?