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I don't want to be the fat girl anymore. I'm so depressed and I hate it. I've been eating super healthy and I've been working out a ton.. but it is not helping. I wish I didn't gain 30 pounds during the winter of my senior year. I wish people didn't make fun of me for it. I wish I didn't care so much what people thought. Basically.. everything has been building up and I had a mental breakdown here in front of Jerod... who has NO idea whatsoever how it feels to be made fun of or stared at for your weight. at all. yea. I just keep on getting upset about it, but I also keep working hard to get it off.. and pretty much it isn't working and I'm really upset about it... I've been working hard on it since I moved to school.. I should see some results by now, don't you think. Pretty much I'm tired of myself.. I was contemplating whether or not to even post this because I don't want fake sympathy.. oh well. I'm going to bed and then driving the 7 hours home tomorrow. I can't wait til summer.