Total Weridness Lately!
So starting school yesterday was cool. But I was in a good mood until I stopped to chat with my friend Noelia after my first class & we both had a break before our next one. We sat at a table & she started talking about Chad yet again... Grrrr she never shuts up about him & it bugs me sooooo much. She started telling me that she wishes she didn't like him so much, and that she wishes she didn't mess around with him, etc. She told me they would of had sex if he would of had a condom & all those details I just didn't at all need to hear. It made me sooooo upset... I just wanted to scream!!!! Everytime we hangout now, all she wants to do is talk about him. I just feel like she is somehow trying to run in the fact that she got him first. I thought I was doing something right by getting to know him first as friends & she totally goes & takes him & seduces him & shit. Grrrrr what a hoe! I love her to death, we grew up together, but she has done this to me twice & it's fucked up! I can't believe it... It makes me feel soooo uncomfortable around her & him. He is like my best guy friend & I don't want to loose his friendship at all over this. But I feel soooo outta place & all. I really thought he was different then every other guy I have liked. But then out of all people he fools around with her & she likes to rub it in. I know he feels bad becuz he knows he lost everything he could of had with me beyond friendship. It just makes me sad that yet another guy fucks things up bewteen us. He said h was cool with being friends & I didn't care he was seeing other people. But then he kept telling me I was the only one he cared about & then goes off & almost had sex with her & calls me the next morning becuz he felt guilty. He really fucked this one up. God!!! Im never going to have a boyfriend again at this rate. Again every time I think Im doing something right, it's never good enough for someone else. Grrrrr whatever! I just wanna try to advoid her at school & work if I can help it. I need to not hear about all her issues they need to work out themselves. I talked to Jesskya about it & she's soooo understanding. She is the sweetest ever! She made me a little cute pillow thats pink & it has a little pocket! hehehe I never knew she liked to sew.
Well today school was much better then yesterday. I only had one class & my lab was canceled, so I ran into my old friend Daisy & talked to her for a bit in the computer lab until Courtney called me to meet me at her car. I also didn't see Noelia or Val. Val is this HOTT soccer chick I met & hungout with for a while, but she was a total closet case. Like worse then me on not being out to everyone. I think she stopped hanging out with me becuz she thought I was "too out". Blah! I saw her yesterday while talking to Noelia & I totally put my head the other way. I think she saw me anyways, but didn't say hi, so whatever. I used to like her soooooo much & it will be better if I just don't talk to her & avoid her at any cost. I mean what do you say to the person you really liked & then all of the sudden ditched you??? I dunno.. Any advice??
I hungout with Chad, Cory & his g/f Tabby yesterday night & got dinner at stake & shake. I ran into Ryan as well. Man was that werid!! he kept holding my hand & flirting. Cory said that Chad should of said something about it.. Which makes me think that Cory has no idea what is going on with Chad & Noelia right now. Blah! I told Chad how I felt & it made me feel really werid, but he just said h was sorry he ever did it & he was sorry he was "just another one of my disapointments".. I dunno.. Blah! It's werid how when you start dating someone that everyone in the past that never gave you a chance or whatever seems to pop up & like you again or whatever.. lol
Oh yeah & if you ever ride in Courtneys car, be careful & don't drop anything becuz you will never fnd it again in her dirty car..lol. I dropped my glasses & almost couldn't find them.. lol. I told her we are gonna clean out her car soon!!!
Well today school was much better then yesterday. I only had one class & my lab was canceled, so I ran into my old friend Daisy & talked to her for a bit in the computer lab until Courtney called me to meet me at her car. I also didn't see Noelia or Val. Val is this HOTT soccer chick I met & hungout with for a while, but she was a total closet case. Like worse then me on not being out to everyone. I think she stopped hanging out with me becuz she thought I was "too out". Blah! I saw her yesterday while talking to Noelia & I totally put my head the other way. I think she saw me anyways, but didn't say hi, so whatever. I used to like her soooooo much & it will be better if I just don't talk to her & avoid her at any cost. I mean what do you say to the person you really liked & then all of the sudden ditched you??? I dunno.. Any advice??
I hungout with Chad, Cory & his g/f Tabby yesterday night & got dinner at stake & shake. I ran into Ryan as well. Man was that werid!! he kept holding my hand & flirting. Cory said that Chad should of said something about it.. Which makes me think that Cory has no idea what is going on with Chad & Noelia right now. Blah! I told Chad how I felt & it made me feel really werid, but he just said h was sorry he ever did it & he was sorry he was "just another one of my disapointments".. I dunno.. Blah! It's werid how when you start dating someone that everyone in the past that never gave you a chance or whatever seems to pop up & like you again or whatever.. lol
Oh yeah & if you ever ride in Courtneys car, be careful & don't drop anything becuz you will never fnd it again in her dirty car..lol. I dropped my glasses & almost couldn't find them.. lol. I told her we are gonna clean out her car soon!!!