im so stupid,
Im so stupid... I cant believe... that I was dumb enough to think that someone could care about me.... and possibly still care about me. I mean come on look at the facts right now. I am so messed up right now.
I have a boyfriend right now, that I dont even like anymore, well I like him as a friend, but that is it, and I am such a fricken lozer because I cant go to his face and dump him. Then while I am going out with him, I am telling the person that I still love that I love him, even tho he hurt me... alot. And I thought that you know, becuase he still loves me and I love him, that maybe someday we could be together again. So I go to school, and I plan on telling my boyfriend that I just want to be friends, but I am such a freakin chicken, that I cant do that. And now, I am coming home, faking sick, because I couldn't stand to be at school anymore. IT HURTS SO MUCH TO GO TO SCHOOL AND SEE THE PERSON THAT YOU CARE ABOUT SO MUCH, AND IS YOUR EVERYTHING, YOU THINK ABOUT HIM EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY, and then watch them be with someone else... and love someone else too.... and watch them hold hands... and all that bf+gf stuff. so now, because I am so stupid... I fake sick, come home, and cry. and even cry in the fricken hallway at school before you get to the office. Everyday, having to turn away from your friends for a second to whipe the tears away from your eyes, just so they dont see you cry.... I just cant take it anymore... I cant stop these tears from falling,
I have a boyfriend right now, that I dont even like anymore, well I like him as a friend, but that is it, and I am such a fricken lozer because I cant go to his face and dump him. Then while I am going out with him, I am telling the person that I still love that I love him, even tho he hurt me... alot. And I thought that you know, becuase he still loves me and I love him, that maybe someday we could be together again. So I go to school, and I plan on telling my boyfriend that I just want to be friends, but I am such a freakin chicken, that I cant do that. And now, I am coming home, faking sick, because I couldn't stand to be at school anymore. IT HURTS SO MUCH TO GO TO SCHOOL AND SEE THE PERSON THAT YOU CARE ABOUT SO MUCH, AND IS YOUR EVERYTHING, YOU THINK ABOUT HIM EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY, and then watch them be with someone else... and love someone else too.... and watch them hold hands... and all that bf+gf stuff. so now, because I am so stupid... I fake sick, come home, and cry. and even cry in the fricken hallway at school before you get to the office. Everyday, having to turn away from your friends for a second to whipe the tears away from your eyes, just so they dont see you cry.... I just cant take it anymore... I cant stop these tears from falling,