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[soccergirlsam]

i really like being me.
but lately, i've been kinda sad.

i'm just so irresponsible sometimes. and therefore i'm not a very good role model.

-my room is a mess ALL the time.
-i dont seem to care about time. i feel that other things are more important than time, so i'm very often late for things. and i turn things in late too.
-i feel like i don't appreciate things as much as i should. i mean i have one more year left here with my parents and i feel like i need to be more thankful for all they've done for me.
i mean they work their asses off and i'm sitting here on the computer when i could be doing chores to help them out.
-i'm focusing on school so much less than i normally do, but doing the best i've ever done. that doesn't sit well with me. i feel like i'm not working hard so i shouldn't be rewarded. but w/e, i'll take it.
-i feel like i don't have friends. i mean i know i could if i called ppl, but i'm so busy with other stuff that i don't. that that saddens me deeply.

whatever. i'm improving on the cello a lot. so thats really cool! :D
later.