I’m a tear in the clock as you walk away...I can almost see a shade of your blue eyes...
Hey.
I had a orcestra concert wednesday night. Its was really cool... I liked it. and I might not sound or look like the type of person who likes orcestra. but Iam. And i do play. I have been for 3 years. and if you want to know what i play. its the Violin.
The obvious one that everyone plays. well. most people.
I went back to the school tonight. and i saw the 8th grade play with skye kory justin, jake F and tyler.
yeah you probably dont know them. or do. whatever.
I saw cori.
Im sorry.
But Id have to admit. I do miss her.
...hmmm
I really just wanted to write. I dont really write poetry anymore. blah. its kinda sad. i just draw these pictures now. they are all dark shaded and have lyrics all over them. I get board in class. But i think orcestra is what takes some of my stress out... if that makes any sense at all? sure.
I have been dating jake for 3 months now. Hes amazing. :]
and I miss him right now...
:[
<3
Um.
If anyone wants to know how ive been. Or even cares.
I suck.
Owwhhh i had a breakdown in the school bathroom today.
that was fun.
untill i missed an hour of class and sat in the councler's office.
by myself.
and i read some depression book thingys.
kinda interesting.
if you have like.
Monoucleouses.
=
Mono.
and its not like a physical problem or something.
thats a symtem of child depression.
Over sleeping.
Sleeping too much.
Or not sleeping at all.
um drugs.
yeah whatever you know the rest lack of eating disorders or whatever.
I hate that word.
Whatever....whatever....
whatever.
Jake uses that when he doesnt wanna listen to me.
I depise that word.
and dude
what a stupid word.
dude.
eugh
duuiiidede
ewwwugh.
yeah.
Im rambling.
I miss football games. those where the days.
I cant wait till summer.
YAY.
Im going to go out to the soccer complex and lay there and fall asleep and wake up in the morning.
look at alllllll the stttarrrsss.
yeah i think im done rambling now. Comment and i will fricking love you.
No one ever reads this thing anyway.
whhhoooooppp.
<3 marcella.
I'm In Fricking Love.
And if i could swim I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if i was blessed i'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving sunken chest.
Because they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams.
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you and they gut you and you give in.
And if i was brave i'd climb up to you on the mountain.
They let you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And i'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes,
And i'd stand there like a soldier with my foot upon his chest.
With my grin spread and my arms out in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you’d hold me,
I’d remind you who you are under their shell.
I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you,
And if they sent a whirlwind,
I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it,
and I'd bring you back to me,
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.
I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you,
let the torturing ensue.....
My soul is useless without you,
without you, without you, without you
now I’ve walked through hell for you,
whats an adventurer to do, but rest these feet at home with you.
^ I wrote that all. by memorie.
i love that song.
<3
♥
mhm.
You might now know it.
I might now show it.
But cant you see.
You mean everything to me.
<3
x.o.x.o
♥