Sep 05, 2005 15:43
hey!
Havent writen in here in a long time.. well quite awhile.. no one really reads this anyway. and if they did then you know they would comment.
So.. where i should start.
The football game..
Borning at first..
hilarious at one time. *wink wink* - poor water all over kelsie Jezak. i efgw9iohboi hate her.
and then i herd some random girl or someone i know came up after me and got her even worse!
and then the cops where commin for me and Mr. currie is the shit so he backed me up.
I <3 Celestine. : )
fun at another..
and then horrible. *ugh* - breathes
we will just leave it at that.
brused from last night. waiting for the breakdown.
"I cant see you like this.."
well its allways like this..
so throw me against the wall.
and hit me again.
this pain is too much to handle.
like the coldness you feal
when you dont think its real..
when the room is deep in its spinning.
shaking and listening to bitter sweet singing.
this is heartache just waiting for me.
blinded from the start where i couldnt even see.
yeah.. i wrote that..
sick of people steal things from me
and saying i copy things..
becasue they dont believe me.
oh well. their loss.
" If you werent real, I'd make you up.."
< yeah.
♥
So i have been dieing over musci latley.. finaly got my computer to work for my ipod. and i only have 155 songs and Iam not even close to being done.
sick. *drags*
Yeah and now i have been hanging out with laurnen and skye. and really that i think about it skye is becoming one of my best friends. and i mean without all that heart to heart shit everyone goes through.
blah < ?
Yeah... so..
there is alot going on. to much to explain. i mean. alot. dont even get me started.
Last night i was out wiht lauren and skye in the car till 4 30am. having some fun with her mom..
good old fashion fun. oh and sean. like the coolest kid ever!
yupp.
and then Iam waiting for montana to come home.
oh do i ever love her < ♥ < sweetheart..
so Iam litsening to brand new.. last night still was supper fun. and like me and skye jammed to all these somgs becasue Gage ?is that how you spell his name? oh well. skyes brother listens to all the same music. so skye and me are having fun.
: )
Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
So now that everything is in circles and messed up right. when i try to tell someone i act liek its not a big deal and ending up laughing to cover it up.. i look and sound retared. guess you can say Iam kinda good at it?
and then someone told me that the thing in my profile about suicide was too old for me..
well.. you dont understand. people at the age of 13 think about it all the time. I dont of corse. thats a little to much for me. .but i do know what people feel. and its even worse when yo get a little taste of it.
but I'am babbling. so I'll catch you later.
♥
Marcella.
I got a twenty-dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you without makeup.
You're always made up.
And I'm sick of your tattoos,
and the way you always criticize the Smiths... and Morrissey.
And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic.
But when I say let's keep in touch,
I really mean I wish that you'd grow up.
This is the first song for your mixtape.
It's short just like your temper,
but somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got to cool...
♥ They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.♥
...mmhmm..
x.o.x.o