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soooo tomorrow ive gotta go pick up my $547 worth of books then wednesday school starts.....yay.....everyone keeps askin me if im excited about college, but really i dont care....its gonna be like normal but with school 3days a week and lotsa studyin and work to do.....truthfully i just want to get it over with....its just like something i have to put up with for a while till i can get it done and get on with my life......i love josh....he's the bestest thing in the world.....i can't imagine being with anyone else....its really funny cuz in florida before i moved everyone was like u are movin there so u can meet a great guy and fall in love.......and it happened :) i cant believe how different my life is now from how it was like 2yrs ago.....its great i guess....sometimes i feel kinda stupid cuz like josh is my only friend.....i dont hang out with anyone but him, but i dont really care.....i love hanging out with him.....i just hope he doesnt ever get tired of me......i can't believe how much the people i know have changed, and i cant believe people i knew so good i now hardly know......i really wish my life would fast-forward just a few years......my life would be perfect if i was done with school, stable, married, and has a lil. son named jason......lol matt u should feel so special u've had an influence in mine and josh's life, we want to have a son named jason cuz of u.....oh well.....one day when i have all that im probably gonna be like dang i cant wait till im retired and the kids are all grown up and away.....i can't believe the world today....people who i never would have though would be all involved with drugs and sex and all are completly involved in it now....its so sad cuz i know thats not what people need to be happy......i hope one day everyone i care bout will find someone to love completly the way i love josh.....its the greatest thing in the world....ive realized everything ive done in my life prepared myself for when me and him got together....if i hadnt gone through certain things ive gone through and experienced in my life, me and him wouldnt ever have worked out and i'd still be searching for someone to be like the way most of my friends are searching for someone right now....he's given my life a different meaning and makes me feel so much better bout life and bout myself than i ever felt before....anyways though if u are reading this crazy midnight rambling i just wrote, i love u!!!!!!