I'm quite thinky---very, very thinky.
So.
My Grandpa had to got the hospital this morning...his eyes aren't doing good at all. If he becomes blind too everything will go to shit. We will have to babysit them, and that is just so demenaing for them! They are still younger, they still have hobbies they enjoy and if he becomes blind too the can't enjoy fuckin' anything! Excuse my language for this section, but it makes me so frustrated! FUck fuck fuck fuck fuck! Can you imagine your doctor telling you the WRONG blood sugar level to be at, one that is way too high, and then have your diabetes take over and steal your eyesight?! Can you imagine being locked in darkness, unable to enjoy simple things that are usually overlooked? The goegous sunsets, lights at a carnival, the green of the grass, the ability to cook, the ability to dress in colours that match, the ability to enjoy the way the world looks.........I.......am at a loss of words. WHat can you say? What can you do? If you try suing the doctor it'll just get you money. ANd money can't buy those things back for you. Nothing can. Not to be a total insensitive bitch but there will be increased pressure on my family if this situation comes to be. My Dad is an only child and so is my Mom, so there is no one else to share the load with. I will virtually be forced to get a liscence in order to drive them anywhere they want, to run errands for them etc. I can't park. I can't fuckin' paralell park. It isn't right that they should have so much crap, that my Grandma was forced to give up the cottage she loved, that my Grandpa was too stubbourn to give it to us to take care of. It isn't right for them to be plunged into darkness and to be left idle, when they enjoy gardening, sewing and cooking. Will they have to go into a home? This is just shit. Just all shit.
Coming off on that note: The carnival ^_^ was totally fun. (heart). I had a really good time, and am proud of myself for a couple reasons. 1) I went on the high high ferris wheel, and was scared of the height, but did ok...the other is to remain secret for me. Saw Chad there and concluded he's a little delusional.
I want to go to the party on the 8th. Sadly, Kyle has an innate sense for scheduling important events when I won't be in town....should I be taking a hint? He doesn't want me there. :( *cries* *sniff* lol
Beach. Friday. Be there in your sexiest suit biatches. I mean it. I will get nasty....wait....wrong word choice. I will get....grumpy? angry? Bah, nevermind!
And some personalized messages in alphabetical order!:
Ange: It was great that you joined us last night. Hope you feel better today. That guy at the fruit shake stand was damn fine. So was that sexy guy who walked past the carousal in the white hat. Shit. He was so hot---like bad boy hot. Damn. I thought I outgrew that. Anywho, good luck with the guy at Sportscheck, but I think it's fair to say that I will never like him as much as I like Chris.
Ash: Hooray for redheads! You make it easy to find people. :) I hope you tamed your hair today, lol. Niagra Falls ride reminded me of the time we went to Valleyfair and had to go on the log ride with Josh, Ian and...the other guy....I have no idea who it was right now. Oh well, it was hot being inbetween people's legs. ;) lol jk
Chris: I don't see enough of you and you were sadly missed yesterday. Working two jobs is nutso. I also need those dimensions you lazy thing. Haha. The irony!
Cody: You were fuzzy yesterday--boarding on hobo fuzzy. But it was ok....you looked hot. lol Feed the ego! Feed it! Cody....that like is gone now. :P Ahah. Inside joke. You better see me tonight....oh yes.
Kyle: See above. "You have an innate sense of scheduling important event when I'm out of town". lol. You were my ride buddy, that says a lot. ;) I really hope we can manage another get-together with Sarah. I will be sad if we can't.
Neil: Hun, you are slightly off you rocker. So is Cody. Bungee jumping on a slingshot?! My goodness. You have to admit I made an amazing holder-of-stuff. Also you have to admit the slide was awesome. So, so awesome. Small is hot my friend. Small is hot.
Sara: *shakes head* Sometimes I wonder about you. Sometimes.
I had a great scene for a zombie movie, it is in the staff portion of Sears. It is the freakiest building I've ever been in.
Well, that's it for now, I'm still a little upset. It'll be ok. It has to be.
SoccerChicka, the slightly stressed and irratated, contemplative pixie