omg
omg...john makes me soo mad sometimes..yea i know i joke around with him on some things but he seriously dogged on peyton manning soo bad and ooo i soo hated that!! and he actually likes tom brady, that son of a bitch. aggh! then he wouldnt leave my house and we would have been fine but he had to follow me and wake my parents up and show that he was at my house at like two oclock in the morning....aggh! stupid ass!
anyways i said sorry to my parents and they said its ok but i need to start thinking about time and that kind of crap, you know...and that im gonna be on my own soon and i gotta plan on being by myself and not having my parents to look after me to keep me in line. i think ill be ok..
so now im baking cookies at two thirty in the morning cuz i cant sleep and im mad....go figure!
o and i definitely need to put some new pictures up...this one is really getting on my nerves...
o and my fucking brother wont show up to one of my things again! go figure! so chris wont come home until the fifth or the sixth...and yea i know hes in iraq but still he asked for my birthday and graduation specifically off and he isnt coming....i know its not his fault...but its still that he wont be here....
and my brother and i kinda got into an argument a couple weeks ago about my drinking or whatever and i wrote him an apology note and he never wrote me back...i guess ill never have a good relationship with my brother and that goes from way back in my childhood....
we never got along as kids and when we became teenagers, we fought constantly and it wasnt the shouting matches, they were all out fights where we hit each other in the face and in the private parts, anywhere to get a good hit and make the other one hurt worse...this is how its been our whole lives. he is a neat freak that has to have everything in order and if any of you know me, i cant have neatness for more than one day. im just not like that! when he went to college, we were ok for awhile and i thought things have gotten better, but when he came over, we would be ok for the first couple days then we would be back to fighting....its always the same...i really feel bad this time though. yes, he is in iraq and things are really hard for him. i feel really bad about this and i try to talk to him but i usually get frustrated with my family on the phone or he doesnt respond to my emails.
everything is coming out in the open and i really do miss him but i dont know if i just miss him because hes in iraq or if i want things to be better and they are going to be better...who knows...im really tired but i can never fall asleep...go figure.
well i gotta go finish up my cookies so who knows...ill prolly write more about it when he comes home.
peace and love and please pray for my bro...i do love him no matter what i may say sometimes.
anyways i said sorry to my parents and they said its ok but i need to start thinking about time and that kind of crap, you know...and that im gonna be on my own soon and i gotta plan on being by myself and not having my parents to look after me to keep me in line. i think ill be ok..
so now im baking cookies at two thirty in the morning cuz i cant sleep and im mad....go figure!
o and i definitely need to put some new pictures up...this one is really getting on my nerves...
o and my fucking brother wont show up to one of my things again! go figure! so chris wont come home until the fifth or the sixth...and yea i know hes in iraq but still he asked for my birthday and graduation specifically off and he isnt coming....i know its not his fault...but its still that he wont be here....
and my brother and i kinda got into an argument a couple weeks ago about my drinking or whatever and i wrote him an apology note and he never wrote me back...i guess ill never have a good relationship with my brother and that goes from way back in my childhood....
we never got along as kids and when we became teenagers, we fought constantly and it wasnt the shouting matches, they were all out fights where we hit each other in the face and in the private parts, anywhere to get a good hit and make the other one hurt worse...this is how its been our whole lives. he is a neat freak that has to have everything in order and if any of you know me, i cant have neatness for more than one day. im just not like that! when he went to college, we were ok for awhile and i thought things have gotten better, but when he came over, we would be ok for the first couple days then we would be back to fighting....its always the same...i really feel bad this time though. yes, he is in iraq and things are really hard for him. i feel really bad about this and i try to talk to him but i usually get frustrated with my family on the phone or he doesnt respond to my emails.
everything is coming out in the open and i really do miss him but i dont know if i just miss him because hes in iraq or if i want things to be better and they are going to be better...who knows...im really tired but i can never fall asleep...go figure.
well i gotta go finish up my cookies so who knows...ill prolly write more about it when he comes home.
peace and love and please pray for my bro...i do love him no matter what i may say sometimes.