Another rejection letter.. what a suprise.
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I wish I knew what I did wrong. Nothing works out for me. College is a bunch of bullshit. All my life teachers have told me to get good grades so I can go to a good college to be involved so you can get into a good college. Its all a big lie. Am I really less worthy then all of you who are going places you like. I have worked my ass off, and for what, nothing…I killed my self for 7 years for what? I ask what the hell did I do it for. There is no bright side, life is not fair, life sucks. I deserve to be happy just as much as you do. Fuck. I don’t even care I hate it when everyone talks about college because it sucks for me. I hate it when you ask me where I am going? It’s not that easy. I hate it when you say “oh I hope Emily gets in BU, she deserves it.” well do I deserve it less I have never sabotaged anyone’s friendship. I hate it when you say you cannot decide where to go because you love all of them. I hate it I can’t stand it. Everyone talking about school makes me want to rip my esophagus and heart out and jump on them. Fuck why can I every have good luck, why cant things just work out.