Personal Updates.....
Its been a long time since I've seriously updated about my life and family.
On early monday morning, my great aunt died. She lived in The Netherlands. I haven't seen her since my grandmother died in 2003. I found out at 2am while driving home from work. I hate driving home while crying.
My mom was out of town on business when she found out. She flew back from Orlando on monday afternoon. I took her to BWI on tuesday morning. She is in The Netherlands for a week for the funeral. Sadly, i'm glad my mom is gone for a week. This gives me some down time to just relax.
My grandfather in Houston, TX is pretty much lying on his deathbed almost. He has been in and out of the hospital over the past couple of months. I hope he can recover, I can't really deal with anymore death right now.
My mom is having hip resurfacing surgery done in 2 weeks. She's having it done at MT. Sinai in Baltimore. My dad is coming to visit then for 2 weeks. Last thing I need is more stress in my life.
I went to the BR meeting and happy hour last night. lunapuna and pony_sprite did an awesome job of teaching the class. I always enjoy going to happy hour, last night was no exception. Even during the class I tried to step outside of myself and forget about the world outside of the hotel.
That did not go the way I wanted it to. During the meeting my sister called. She has pushed all of the rest of the family away. All she does is bitch and complain all the time. I had to go outside of the hotel just to talk to her. I spent over 20 minutes on the phone with her. I went back inside with tears almost. I refuse to live with her, she's part of the reason I want to stay here. She's gotten herself hooked on pain meds. I've done everything within my power to help her out. I know if I did live with her (i'd seriously hurt myself or have my darker aggressive/violent side come out).
I'm just sick of life and reality right now. I am happy that I have different places like nigtclubs, BR meetings and events, and drag shows where I can escape. I am happy that i'm keeping myself occupied with LF&P and Shamrock Fest this weekend.
Thanks to everyone that stuck by my side. I am so happy for all of the new friends I've made over the past several months. You've all truly made a huge impact and difference in my life.
On early monday morning, my great aunt died. She lived in The Netherlands. I haven't seen her since my grandmother died in 2003. I found out at 2am while driving home from work. I hate driving home while crying.
My mom was out of town on business when she found out. She flew back from Orlando on monday afternoon. I took her to BWI on tuesday morning. She is in The Netherlands for a week for the funeral. Sadly, i'm glad my mom is gone for a week. This gives me some down time to just relax.
My grandfather in Houston, TX is pretty much lying on his deathbed almost. He has been in and out of the hospital over the past couple of months. I hope he can recover, I can't really deal with anymore death right now.
My mom is having hip resurfacing surgery done in 2 weeks. She's having it done at MT. Sinai in Baltimore. My dad is coming to visit then for 2 weeks. Last thing I need is more stress in my life.
I went to the BR meeting and happy hour last night. lunapuna and pony_sprite did an awesome job of teaching the class. I always enjoy going to happy hour, last night was no exception. Even during the class I tried to step outside of myself and forget about the world outside of the hotel.
That did not go the way I wanted it to. During the meeting my sister called. She has pushed all of the rest of the family away. All she does is bitch and complain all the time. I had to go outside of the hotel just to talk to her. I spent over 20 minutes on the phone with her. I went back inside with tears almost. I refuse to live with her, she's part of the reason I want to stay here. She's gotten herself hooked on pain meds. I've done everything within my power to help her out. I know if I did live with her (i'd seriously hurt myself or have my darker aggressive/violent side come out).
I'm just sick of life and reality right now. I am happy that I have different places like nigtclubs, BR meetings and events, and drag shows where I can escape. I am happy that i'm keeping myself occupied with LF&P and Shamrock Fest this weekend.
Thanks to everyone that stuck by my side. I am so happy for all of the new friends I've made over the past several months. You've all truly made a huge impact and difference in my life.